Je t'aimerai toujours, mémère
That time of year has come again; the saddest of all days for me. I can hardly believe that it has been 22 years since I last saw my Memere's face, or heard her voice.
I always make this into an emotional melting pot of tears and regrets. I have a hard time getting passed the fact that right now, in stores, and other places of public gathering, are Automated External Defibrillators (AED's). If Sears had one then she could be alive right now. Or if more people knew CPR, perhaps someone might have provided her brain with the oxygen it needed to keep her from dying in a coma. These are all "what if's" I know that. I also know that even if every possible rescue measure was taken in a timely manor that she still might not have made it. This cannot, however, force my mind to stop thinking about it. Or to stop wishing that what was, could have been different
I know that life does not come with a warranty. And without warning, or good excuse it can be over. The people we love most in our lives can be gone in a flash because time is not guaranteed. What it all boils down to is...I miss you Me'mere.
I have missed you for twenty-two years. I will never stop missing you. I cherish the memories I have of you. I will keep you in my heart forever, and always. And I will take you with me every day. I promise that I will look after my patients the way you looked after me, and my mother, and my grandfather...with love and understanding. And no matter what the road of life brings I will remember how much you loved me.
But above all else I hope that someday if I am standing in line at the checkout counter in a store, and someone collapses in front of me, that I may be able to use the skills I have learned to save lives. And that perhaps I can spare another child from having to say goodbye to his loved one at such an early age.
In my heart I keep you, with my voice I speak of you, in my mind I remember you, and in God’s arms I leave you.
Je t'aimerai toujours, mémère
I always make this into an emotional melting pot of tears and regrets. I have a hard time getting passed the fact that right now, in stores, and other places of public gathering, are Automated External Defibrillators (AED's). If Sears had one then she could be alive right now. Or if more people knew CPR, perhaps someone might have provided her brain with the oxygen it needed to keep her from dying in a coma. These are all "what if's" I know that. I also know that even if every possible rescue measure was taken in a timely manor that she still might not have made it. This cannot, however, force my mind to stop thinking about it. Or to stop wishing that what was, could have been different
I know that life does not come with a warranty. And without warning, or good excuse it can be over. The people we love most in our lives can be gone in a flash because time is not guaranteed. What it all boils down to is...I miss you Me'mere.
I have missed you for twenty-two years. I will never stop missing you. I cherish the memories I have of you. I will keep you in my heart forever, and always. And I will take you with me every day. I promise that I will look after my patients the way you looked after me, and my mother, and my grandfather...with love and understanding. And no matter what the road of life brings I will remember how much you loved me.
But above all else I hope that someday if I am standing in line at the checkout counter in a store, and someone collapses in front of me, that I may be able to use the skills I have learned to save lives. And that perhaps I can spare another child from having to say goodbye to his loved one at such an early age.
In my heart I keep you, with my voice I speak of you, in my mind I remember you, and in God’s arms I leave you.
Je t'aimerai toujours, mémère