vitamin a

[ciromazola]

so what if? i mean, really, what if? what IF i stopped worrying about whether or not i’m enough? if i let that constant loop in my head shut off, retire, even, that loop that keeps telling me to strive, better better always, flogging myself wondering how to better manage time, money, emotions, food, exercise, sleep, conversations, likes,

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[anonymous]

Dear Anne…I am sending you (via e-mail) a recipe for carrot, beet and ginger soup. Usually I don’t push food on people…I dislike raw onions and it pisses me off when people say, “Oh, but you have to try (this or that thing), you will love the onions on it!” But, I oddly thought about you when I made this soup once, because of the ginger. I remembered standing outside Waterstreet Coffee Joint (the Oakland location) once when you took a first sip of your juice and you lost all train of thought in rapture over the ginger. I thought to myself, after making this soup, that I should send the recipe to you. But of course, I never did. So now I will.

Anyway. For what it’s worth…I’ve never been anything but impressed with you the person. You, of all the people I know, should be the last to have worries about whether you are enough. Ironically it is the fact that you DO worry about the what if’s that makes you the impressive person you are…that you are willing to take things beyond the simple cookie cutter definitions. Taking things merely and demurely for face value might be easier (you don’t like beets period) but it’s your desire, or need, to keep looking for more to it that makes you this person that you are. Face value is rarely indicative of true value. But yeah, sometimes for the sake of serenity, I hope you are able to just sit back and let things be easy for a minute. Just don’t let that minute last too long because we need you just the way you are.