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cinnamoninthya

Dilemma: Getting Rid of Unwanteds

Jul 30, 2006 15:49

I had a realization today that although I had survived through a traumatic, tragic event, I wasn't anywhere near the end of my mourning process. An then I had the morbid thought that maybe it would be best if families just passed away together like in car accidents. Nobody mourns their family member's death that way. Mourning. It's a sick cycle ( Read more... )

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leishajane August 1 2006, 00:21:07 UTC

Have I ever told you that I love you?
I miss you dearly, too.
You are just such a bright, and insightful person... and even in your deepest moments, you still are such an amazing person that I have to wonder why I couldn't be as strong and beautiful as you are: inside and out.
Just remember how many people truely love you and are always here for you- no matter how far away we are, or how little we speak with how our lives have seperated.
where are you now, anyway??

cinnamoninthya August 2 2006, 01:28:15 UTC

Thanks, leisha. Your words mean a great deal to me. I wish we could have hung out before I left, but Ben and I are actually in San Francisco now. I'll post pictures as soon as I can get my ass to ritz and develop them. :) Anyway, if you ever get the urge to travel across the country to see San Fran, you're welcome to stay here!!

leishajane August 2 2006, 12:08:31 UTC

wow. what on earth made you two head over there??

cinnamoninthya August 2 2006, 15:57:52 UTC

Grad school. I'm gonna be a docta! :)

rapidrem August 3 2006, 07:00:54 UTC

There are days where I feel as if a looming sadness might drown me so suddenly that I would gasp for insight into the succinct reasoning behind the event itself. Due to moments like those, I thought it best to slowly compose myself into the person I am now. Vacant and trenchant. The only requisite to dissemble me is a hurlding mass to collide with. The matrix would be ripped from its once seemingly stable structure. Matter would react with its new surroundings and life won't be the same. It's how the moon was allegedly created. A planet hit Earth and the pieces of terrain that were broken off collected in the Earth's gravitational pull. Voila, the moon. The impact theory. I wonder what it will take for me to impacted. I don't really understand the purpose in feeling this way. Most of the day I feel rather optimistic. I smile at inconsequential yet touching aspects of life, which in turn makes it seem less inconsequential. But I'm sure most people wouldn't share my sense of enlightenment. I feel like I have dignity and equability. Alas ( ... )