Home Life
As much as I love being here at SMCM, I feel like I'm being pushed against a wall. I can't stand seeing the same old people anymore. I NEED thanksgiving break. I miss my friends back home--sometimes I feel like no one here truly gets me. I felt really annoyed earlier today. I wanted to push the person I was walking with...I know it sounds mean, but that's just how I felt. I have a small group of friends that I go to on campus, but I feel like I've been straining them with my problems. The "fish bowl" of SMCM is taking a toll on me now.
I feel as though I've been really nice to this one guy, but nothing. I even looked past him being socially awkward, but I think I've become awkward around him. I was feeling like I was kinda depressed today. I wanted to go home, to be in my own bed, in my own space.
I miss tennis! I miss the old me--physically how I was in High School. I'm working hard at re-shaping my body like it was before. Being single really isn't as great as I originally thought it was going to be. SMCM guys are really...BLAH!! I just don't know what's wrong with the lot of them. I want to be able to focus on myself, but I really like being in love and giving love to others. I know I can do that with friends, but it's different when you're in a relationship.
I love my classes, however. That's the only true happiness I have in my life. People complain about the amount of work they have, but for me it serves as a distraction. I think that's another reason why I like being and staying busy. If I'm busy, then I won't have to worry about finding someone.
One thing to look forward to: HARRY POTTER! Yeah, it's coming out the 18th!! WAHOO!!
I feel as though I've been really nice to this one guy, but nothing. I even looked past him being socially awkward, but I think I've become awkward around him. I was feeling like I was kinda depressed today. I wanted to go home, to be in my own bed, in my own space.
I miss tennis! I miss the old me--physically how I was in High School. I'm working hard at re-shaping my body like it was before. Being single really isn't as great as I originally thought it was going to be. SMCM guys are really...BLAH!! I just don't know what's wrong with the lot of them. I want to be able to focus on myself, but I really like being in love and giving love to others. I know I can do that with friends, but it's different when you're in a relationship.
I love my classes, however. That's the only true happiness I have in my life. People complain about the amount of work they have, but for me it serves as a distraction. I think that's another reason why I like being and staying busy. If I'm busy, then I won't have to worry about finding someone.
One thing to look forward to: HARRY POTTER! Yeah, it's coming out the 18th!! WAHOO!!