so long, scarecrow?

[cinemagirl]

You know that feeling where you want to do something--something so unlike yourself, something that's on your List Of Stuff To Do Before You Die, something that involves blowing a fair chunk of your Things Are Fucked money--but keep hemming and hawing and can't bring yourself to go through with it? That feeling where you need to travel, get out of the house, out of the country, out of the routine? But at the same time, it's insane and spontaneous and you keep thinking about the money, the economy, the fact that you're going to be kicked out of your apartment in the next couple of months. Plus, you fear that the second you make any plans, something will go terribly, terribly wrong, if only because that's the way it always goes.

Yeah, that's exactly how I feel right now.