Dreamer
All my life, I've been trying to take the easy way out. I wanted to take it easy on life and to go with the flow. You see, I always feel that if you put in effort in anything at all, it becomes a resistance against the current that will take you to where you are supposed to be. Besides, I don't like disappointments, which will become greater, the more effort you put in. No doubt there may be satisfaction in return, but I'd rather not risk it. Take my studies for example, I always end up being half-hearted in studying because I always ask myself whether it's worth the time and effort. Thank God I always manage to scrap through though.
But I do have dreams. Lots of them. I dream to be a journalist and eventually one who can travel around the world and write what she deems fit. I dream to build a fruit orchard in aussie for dad, for him to retire in. Ultimately, I dream to build a beach house and live by the sea. Idealistic, maybe. But I live by these dreams.
Before now, I always feel that it's not the time to pursue my dreams because I've yet got the ability to do so. I let myself float through these years, constantly reminding myself that it's enough to just stay within the path. Now, with one foot into adulthood, I know it's time to make the effort. I may not like disappointments (who would?), but I don't fear it. Surprisingly though, it felt good to have something to work hard for.
I've applied for internship at Mediacorp Publishing, gotten an interview and sent in articles for review. As much as I hope for the best, I know I've done all I could and that is all that matters. :)
PS: I know this is kinda sudden, but I'm leaving for Kunming (China) tomorrow morning. ;)
But I do have dreams. Lots of them. I dream to be a journalist and eventually one who can travel around the world and write what she deems fit. I dream to build a fruit orchard in aussie for dad, for him to retire in. Ultimately, I dream to build a beach house and live by the sea. Idealistic, maybe. But I live by these dreams.
Before now, I always feel that it's not the time to pursue my dreams because I've yet got the ability to do so. I let myself float through these years, constantly reminding myself that it's enough to just stay within the path. Now, with one foot into adulthood, I know it's time to make the effort. I may not like disappointments (who would?), but I don't fear it. Surprisingly though, it felt good to have something to work hard for.
I've applied for internship at Mediacorp Publishing, gotten an interview and sent in articles for review. As much as I hope for the best, I know I've done all I could and that is all that matters. :)
PS: I know this is kinda sudden, but I'm leaving for Kunming (China) tomorrow morning. ;)