written November 11, 2008 (Junior Fall 08--Centre)
Dear Journal,
I just got out of Cultural Fiesta and made Spanish rice again. It went quick. I wished Josh was there this year. I really miss him. I caught myself in tears again in MAT130 class this time because i miss him so much. I deserve him, and i know we can be great--as long as he wills it, he needs to give it a chance and please just me again.
I met his girlfriend over homecoming. I know I'm better than her-- i don't care how much that sounds stuck up and egotistical, but i know he was going for convenience this summer and left me behind in all of it. Even Ana and the rest of the Breck crew believed she was a step down from me.
He called me the Tuesday after homecoming-- i heard nothing on the other end so i hung up. I wish i called back and am still wondering if i should call him even now.
Hell, what does it matter anymore? I'm leaving for Barbados and Mexico and wont be back until Senior year. I know what i need to do but i refuse to do it--stop being in relationships! (Ben and Clyde are giving me a headache, they;re def not worth it).
I just got out of Cultural Fiesta and made Spanish rice again. It went quick. I wished Josh was there this year. I really miss him. I caught myself in tears again in MAT130 class this time because i miss him so much. I deserve him, and i know we can be great--as long as he wills it, he needs to give it a chance and please just me again.
I met his girlfriend over homecoming. I know I'm better than her-- i don't care how much that sounds stuck up and egotistical, but i know he was going for convenience this summer and left me behind in all of it. Even Ana and the rest of the Breck crew believed she was a step down from me.
He called me the Tuesday after homecoming-- i heard nothing on the other end so i hung up. I wish i called back and am still wondering if i should call him even now.
Hell, what does it matter anymore? I'm leaving for Barbados and Mexico and wont be back until Senior year. I know what i need to do but i refuse to do it--stop being in relationships! (Ben and Clyde are giving me a headache, they;re def not worth it).