Fanmix :: (Luke/Reid) "SPOILER" Mix
So this started as a way for me to deal with the rumors and spoilers for the last two weeks of As the World Turns but then became like... a mixture of a catharsis and something else.
SPOILERS for the rest of the show. If you don't want them, don't look! PLEASE!
(For those who don't care, MUSIC!)
It also fits for the prompt "grief" for my hc_bingo. So GO ME! ;)
(sorry for the crappy art, I'm working on it?)
Brandi Carlile :: Bend Before it Breaks
Say it aint so, say I'm happy again
Say it's over, say I'm dreaming,
Say I'm better than you left me
Say you're sorry, I can take it
Say you'll wait, say you won't
Say you love me, say you don't
I can make my own mistakes
Let it bend before it breaks
The immediate feeling of loss. The initial shock of it actually happening and the moment where Luke realizes that Reid is gone.
Magnetic Fields :: I don’t want to get over you
Cause I don’t want to get over love
I could listen to my therapist
Pretend you don’t exist
And not have to dream of
What I dream of
I could listen to all my friends
And go out again
And pretend it's enough
Or I could make a career
Of being blue
I could dress in black
And read Camus
Smoke clove cigarettes
And drink vermouth
Like I was seventeen
That would be a scream
But I don't want to get over you
His family and friends really are trying to help, but nothing makes him feel any better. But for a while he can at least try. If nothing else, Luke is a people pleaser.
Vertical Horizon :: Give You Back
I need to know if you were real
'cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
In the grand scope of things they weren't together long but Reid changed Luke's life.
Phantom Planet :: Lonely Day
Everybody knows that somethin's wrong
but nobody knows what's goin' on
We all sing that same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shapin' up to be a lonely day
I could tell, from the minute I woke up
it was gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day
Time just passes and people think he is moving on, but he really isn't.
Lifehouse :: From Where You Are
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
The anger of what was taken from him. The years, the time. Reid made him promise the whole enchilada but he never got that promise back.
Copeland :: Sleep
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Am I sleeping with my eyes wide?
Am I alone?
Am I staring into bright lights?
Have I gone home?
Rascal Flatts :: I can Almost
And that someday you’ll be coming back to me
And oh I’m getting so good, oh baby, at playing make believe
That I can almost talk to your memory
Oh I’m getting oh so good at playing make believe
That I can almost talk to your memory
Denial is a completely (un)healthy form of coping.
Colin Hay :: I don’t think I’ll Ever Get Over You
I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that's far away
And when I’m done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
Don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
If I lived till I was a hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
But eventually he needs to move forward, even if he isn't really ready to move on.
Bonus Tracks
Peter Gabriel :: I Grieve
It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
Nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
Is just the way that you were tied in
Now there's no one home
I grieve for you
And you leave me
Luke to Reid in general.
Rob Thomas :: All that I am
I am the sound of love's arriving
Echoed softly on the sand
Lay your head upon my shoulder
Lay your hand within my hand
I give you all that I am
And I breathe where you breathe
Let me stand where you stand
With all that I am
Reid to Luke. (You know, if um... he could have a song for his afterlife. Work with me people.)
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SPOILERS for the rest of the show. If you don't want them, don't look! PLEASE!
(For those who don't care, MUSIC!)
It also fits for the prompt "grief" for my hc_bingo. So GO ME! ;)
(sorry for the crappy art, I'm working on it?)
Brandi Carlile :: Bend Before it Breaks
Say it aint so, say I'm happy again
Say it's over, say I'm dreaming,
Say I'm better than you left me
Say you're sorry, I can take it
Say you'll wait, say you won't
Say you love me, say you don't
I can make my own mistakes
Let it bend before it breaks
The immediate feeling of loss. The initial shock of it actually happening and the moment where Luke realizes that Reid is gone.
Magnetic Fields :: I don’t want to get over you
Cause I don’t want to get over love
I could listen to my therapist
Pretend you don’t exist
And not have to dream of
What I dream of
I could listen to all my friends
And go out again
And pretend it's enough
Or I could make a career
Of being blue
I could dress in black
And read Camus
Smoke clove cigarettes
And drink vermouth
Like I was seventeen
That would be a scream
But I don't want to get over you
His family and friends really are trying to help, but nothing makes him feel any better. But for a while he can at least try. If nothing else, Luke is a people pleaser.
Vertical Horizon :: Give You Back
I need to know if you were real
'cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
In the grand scope of things they weren't together long but Reid changed Luke's life.
Phantom Planet :: Lonely Day
Everybody knows that somethin's wrong
but nobody knows what's goin' on
We all sing that same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shapin' up to be a lonely day
I could tell, from the minute I woke up
it was gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day
Time just passes and people think he is moving on, but he really isn't.
Lifehouse :: From Where You Are
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
The anger of what was taken from him. The years, the time. Reid made him promise the whole enchilada but he never got that promise back.
Copeland :: Sleep
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my bedside?
Will I wake to find you waiting by my side?
Am I sleeping with my eyes wide?
Am I alone?
Am I staring into bright lights?
Have I gone home?
Rascal Flatts :: I can Almost
And that someday you’ll be coming back to me
And oh I’m getting so good, oh baby, at playing make believe
That I can almost talk to your memory
Oh I’m getting oh so good at playing make believe
That I can almost talk to your memory
Denial is a completely (un)healthy form of coping.
Colin Hay :: I don’t think I’ll Ever Get Over You
I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that's far away
And when I’m done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
Don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
If I lived till I was a hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
But eventually he needs to move forward, even if he isn't really ready to move on.
Bonus Tracks
Peter Gabriel :: I Grieve
It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
Nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
Is just the way that you were tied in
Now there's no one home
I grieve for you
And you leave me
Luke to Reid in general.
Rob Thomas :: All that I am
I am the sound of love's arriving
Echoed softly on the sand
Lay your head upon my shoulder
Lay your hand within my hand
I give you all that I am
And I breathe where you breathe
Let me stand where you stand
With all that I am
Reid to Luke. (You know, if um... he could have a song for his afterlife. Work with me people.)
zip file
box file for single files