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Have you ever just sat there & thought..why?..why did God put me here?
why do people hate? why my life turned out this way? why do people want to
kill themselves? why my life is falling apart? why do people love you & then hate you? why you care so much about what other people think? why did I turn out the way i did?
janie and i found a note in the strange building today and it was some kid's journal entry written out and it said how he took a razor to himself and how he was considering suicide. and i just sat there and read it. how lurid what all he was saying has become to me. and then after school i thought about that and just cried. has someone's life really gotten that bad that the only way they can find out is to kill themselves? and if so, this is just one person who actually wrote it down, but what about all those people we think we know... who feel the exact same way? and then i thought about the reasons God put me on this earth. why? was it to save someone else's life? was it to make someone happier so they would never have to feel the pain people feel as they think about ending their life? there are some people in my life that mean so much to me. jamie vail... omg she is the most awesomest person ever... stephanie... jake... ashley... kristin... mandie... chelsea...brittany!... beth... constance... i mean these people are the people that have blessed so mamy people's lives. im done being a moody person and one who is always upset or mad at something. so my goal: be happy!!! enough said. kathleen... im done being mad at you. as long as you and micah are happy then everything is fine. so... ready... set... go!
::sing song voice::
don't worry be happy....
Kasja <3