What am I supposed to think?

Jul 18, 2005 20:55

As it turns out, im a hindrance not a help. I create problems where there should not be any and cause the past to remain a constant painful melodrama. It seems that this will be enhanced by a simple inking of the skin...an eternal reminder of who I am not.
I am many things. I am a woman, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a student etc. I am a decent person with decent morals. I remember those who love me and those I have loved. I do not consider these memories to be false in any way or misleading. They are simply a glimpse into a shared past.
Though I am many things, I am not "the one that got away" or the "unattainable goal" or "failed relationship". A simple phrase should not be a reminder of what I could have been, but rather what I (and we) have become. It's safe to say that letting go of some things is healthy and most necessary. However, letting go of the here and now is unacceptable. I am Stephanie, the one who chose a different path. I chose that path because that's what felt correct to me at the time. I chose different goals, ambitions, and courses of action. All parties involved know that if anything would have been different the odds of the outcome changing are slim. I refuse to become a subject too difficult or not good enough for your ink story. Ultimately, it's up to you. But I see your reasoning as flawed, and a simple excuse to shy away from something very meaningful. Am I not as meaningful and stand for an equal quantity of emotion than physical activity?
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