need a little time to wake up
i hate emotions. one minute you're happy the other minute you're sad. i went patio furniture shopping with my mom today and i say some pretty crude stuff. i also get very depressed around my mom. idk. she always seems really depressed too. she wants to buy some patio furniture with some money left over from her mom's estate. i found out some of that money went to getting me out of jail. i've been writing a lot and i've checked out a shitload of books from the library. well, like ten. i am going to lose them and have to pay for them. a treasury of russian literature, the illiad, the prince (a critical analytical edition),no exit and three other plays, leviathan, purgatorio, the comedy market a writer's guide to making money being funny, a nook on pirates, and coming of age as a poet. i also checked out fletch with chevy chase. i've been writing my thoughts down a lot, i have been trying to think of funny shit for the funniest person in cincinnati contest. i've been listening to a learn a language record (german, but i also have french, russian, and spanish) that my grandma gave to me when she was moving out of her house into a retirement home. i have a good base knowlege in all of them but russian, and i need to work on my pronunciation/annuciation. i also bought morning glory seeds at target and my mom said she thought the cashier was flirting with me. my dad gave corey money to go to hooters so i went too. i tipped the waitress pretty good because i just got paid and my dad paid for it so whatever. i ate some of the seeds and like half a sheet of peanut butter chip brownies too =d. i go through this phase just about every other week to try and hold onto what's left. i'm not really sure anymore. i feel fairly confident about where i'm at only i'm not sure where i'll end up. i keep thinking about joining the navy or the marines, and i really want to quit or just do it. i know i'd be too nervous to enjoy it or i'd just get shot in the face. who knows. i really need to just slow down. i had a dream last night (well like middle of the day) about getting fired from work. that's always a fun thought. i do need a new job though but i really like where i'm at right now only i know it won't be this good forever. if you followed all that give yourself a pat on the back.