minuscule steps
Today, I looked into the mirror without consciously averting my eyes from my reflection. I've been avoiding it recently because simply looking in the mirror tends to put a damper on my mood.
And for one brief second, I smiled the way I used to smile all the time--silly and happy and bright-eyed and happy-go-lucky, the way people know me, my "signature" smile, I guess?
It's been a while since I've seen it, but now that I know that it's still there and waiting to be released gives me hope for this year. Before the end of the year, I'll be proud of who I am once again. And I'll smile more! Because people know me as the happy one that always lifts their mood, haha. And people tell me that my smile makes them smile and it's going to sound corny, but I just want people around me to be happy. I can't let people down, I guess?
I also speed-walked up the steepest incline on my treadmill today; it's a lot more hardcore that it sounds, really! I was out of breath for a while, haha. I'm mostly proud of myself for getting off my bed and working out here at home, though.
Also, thank you to everyone who commented on my latest entry! I'm blessed to have such supportive friends on my f-list (': ♥
And for one brief second, I smiled the way I used to smile all the time--silly and happy and bright-eyed and happy-go-lucky, the way people know me, my "signature" smile, I guess?
It's been a while since I've seen it, but now that I know that it's still there and waiting to be released gives me hope for this year. Before the end of the year, I'll be proud of who I am once again. And I'll smile more! Because people know me as the happy one that always lifts their mood, haha. And people tell me that my smile makes them smile and it's going to sound corny, but I just want people around me to be happy. I can't let people down, I guess?
I also speed-walked up the steepest incline on my treadmill today; it's a lot more hardcore that it sounds, really! I was out of breath for a while, haha. I'm mostly proud of myself for getting off my bed and working out here at home, though.
Also, thank you to everyone who commented on my latest entry! I'm blessed to have such supportive friends on my f-list (': ♥