social patterns
dear bu,
i understand the anthropological reasoning behind humankind's predisposition toward forming groups to survive in huge numbers, but why in heaven's name do we have so many clique-y groups? or rather, why is it so hard to simply 'chill out' with people in said clique-y groups for the sole joy of conversation, vegging out, and enjoying each other's company?
i am the person people know other people through. never did i think that would happen, but i guess i ended up connecting a ton of people to each other. as a result of that, i see all of their relationships forming and supportive groups of friends coming together, but that doesn't happen to me.
maybe i've been so used to my small, extremely laid-back high school that the idea of going through almost 20,000 undergrads and 4,000 freshmen to find my "place" scares me more than it should--logically, it shouldn't. i've never had a stable group of friends, but i feel like that should be coming together at this point in my life.
yes, i am just about to start my second semester of college and i shouldn't be worrying about frivolous things that will eventually work themselves out. there's just this nagging feeling that i'm missing out on the joyous aspect of college life, which i don't have much of.
i understand the anthropological reasoning behind humankind's predisposition toward forming groups to survive in huge numbers, but why in heaven's name do we have so many clique-y groups? or rather, why is it so hard to simply 'chill out' with people in said clique-y groups for the sole joy of conversation, vegging out, and enjoying each other's company?
i am the person people know other people through. never did i think that would happen, but i guess i ended up connecting a ton of people to each other. as a result of that, i see all of their relationships forming and supportive groups of friends coming together, but that doesn't happen to me.
maybe i've been so used to my small, extremely laid-back high school that the idea of going through almost 20,000 undergrads and 4,000 freshmen to find my "place" scares me more than it should--logically, it shouldn't. i've never had a stable group of friends, but i feel like that should be coming together at this point in my life.
yes, i am just about to start my second semester of college and i shouldn't be worrying about frivolous things that will eventually work themselves out. there's just this nagging feeling that i'm missing out on the joyous aspect of college life, which i don't have much of.