Yamachii Oneshot: Hungry for Love
Title: Hungry for Love
Author: churro_b32
Pairing: Yamachii
Rating: PG-13 ?
Notes: Italics are emphasized words. :P
"Yuuri, you haven't eaten in days. You have to get something."
Yuuri? Yamada looked up form where he was sitting to see a woman pleading with the boy who seemed to be only a shadow of the person he once knew.
"Fine." The shadow answered. "Surprise me."
Yamada watched them walk to a table in his view. He watched Chinen stare at the meal in front of him, showing no desire nor intention of consuming it any time soon. He hadn't realized he stood up until he was next to their table. "You should eat."
Chinen visibly tensed. "Why?" He looked up to meet Yamada's eyes. "Why do you care whether I eat or not? I obviously didn't mean anything to you years ago considering you left. I apparently still don't since you haven't even tried to talk to me before now."
Yamada was taken aback by Chinen's reaction. "That's not what happened, I--"
"Isn't it, Yamada?" Chinen's harsh tone stopped him from completing the thought.
He was silent for a moment. "Can we talk at least?" He placed his hand on Chinen's shoulder, only to have it swatted away a moment later.
"I'll talk to you, but don't touch me." Chinen excused himself and walked out with Yamada.
Yamada watched Chinen lead him away from the restaurant they had previously been in. He watched Chinen stop abruptly and plop down right under a tree. He sat down next to him at what he thought was a safe enough distance away.
Chinen only stared out into nothingness. "Talk."
He was unsure of what to say. He was admittedly frightened about what Chinen's reaction would be. He hadn't prepared for this. He did not know if anything that he could say would fix what he'd done, but the words began to flood out before he had the chance to process what he was saying. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for what I did. I thought you would be better off without me. How could you possibly be accepted if people knew you were in a relationship with another boy? I didn't want people to tease you. I didn't want people to look down on you, because if they did it would be my fault. I didn't want to be responsible for ruining your life. I wanted only the best for you Chii, please believe me. I hoped that ending our relationship while it was still new would make it easier for you to forget about me. I hoped that you could see that being with me wasn't good for you. I wanted you to live a good life, have a wife, have a family. Don't you want that? There are so many things that I can't give you, Chii. I didn't want to see you give those things up for my sake. I couldn't do that to you, that's why I had to leave. I couldn't watch you give up a happy future and know that it was all because of me. I loved you, Chii. I couldn't hurt you because I loved you. I still do."
He turned when he felt Chinen punch his arm and thought he saw him trying to blink back tears. "Idiot. Why didn't you tell me? I could have told you how stupid you were. You make me happy, Yama-chan. I wouldn't have been giving up anything with you. You're all I want. No, you're all I need."
Yamada smiled slightly and pulled Chinen onto his lap. "We sound like immature teenagers."
"We are immature teenagers." Chinen pointed out.
He chuckled, burying his face in Chinen's neck. "I won't leave again."
Chinen lifted Yamada's arms, wrapping them around his waist. "You promise?"
"Mm." He nodded. "I promise."
Chinen leaned back onto Yamada. "I don't believe you. I'm going to have to buy you a leash or something to make sure you don't run away again."
"Eh? You don't trust me?"
"Trust takes a long time to win back, Yama-chan." Chinen said, interlocking their fingers.
He squeezed Chinen's hand. "As long as it takes, Chii. We have forever in front of us."
"Mm." Chinen turned his head to look into Yamada's eyes, leaning closer until their lips met for the first time in too long. Chinen sighed, letting his eyes fall shut as he snuggled further into Yamada's embrace.
"Chii...." Yamada hesitated, wondering if this was the best time to ask. "Why haven't you been eating?"
"Hmm... because food isn't what I was hungry for."
"Hungry for love, ne?" He said, poking Chinen's cheek.
"Yama-chan, that's cheesy."
"Mm. I know. It's not healthy though so will you eat?"
Chinen stood up and walked back towards the restaurant. "Only if you feed me~"
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A/N: Yeah, it's short. Bleh.
I wrote this at work, probably not the best setting but whatever. XD