Jan 08, 2006 22:44
I want to be motivated to write a love song.
I have decided this after 20 months of not being impressed with women.
I can wander my way into a relationship (read: I can feign interest long enough for the girl to be interested) pretty easily. Upon meeting someone new, I fall into the trap of combining the enjoyment of getting to know a new person with the "Ooh, someone is paying attention to me. Can this work as a relationship?"
Lately, I've gotten to that point of making a decision one way or another, and I've realized that I already know the girl is not going to do it for me, so I've killed the calf before it grows up to produce milk. Mmm, veal. Anyway, its been 4 1/2 years since I met a girl who blew my mind. Unfortunately, I met two girls like that in a three-week period. They would be Carla and Crissey, for those of you looking confusedly at your monitors. And since then, its been a pretty dry spell. Thats not to say that I haven't met some nice ladies, and Amy, and I've had a great time. But, I haven't met that girl that causes everything to slow down and Speedwagon's "I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore" to cue up.
So while I wait for life to get background music, I'm still stuck running around being lonely and spending all my time with couples who speak freely of their sex lives. I had to watch two of my friends purchase condoms today, while I secretly wondered how soon the ones I have will expire, and that line from "The 40-Year-Old Virgin" played in my head ("if you don't use it, do you lose it?" or something to that effect).
Sigh... Impressive girls, where are you hiding? I give up, and you can come out now.
...hello?