I promise not be self-destructive
I don't really know what this is, really. It's probably fear. Fear of many things possibly - of losing out, of being left behind, or alone. There's so many things I miss as well. People, places, things. I feel like I'm missing out on the bigger picture. Like I sit here and I feel like the world is running on ahead without me and that I should go out and do something but I cannot quite pinpoint what it is.
But I also know that I should - need - to sit here and finish what hasn't been done. So before I can catch up with what the world is doing I need to look behind and do what others have, and what I should have. It's not easy - it never is, but I will do it. I don't have much time. I think that's it. I don't have time. I need time. I miss having time...
To the people who read this: I miss you (and I love you as well).
If we haven't spoken for a while, it is probably my fault and we need to reconnect.
If we've spoken recently, I still miss you anyway.
In both cases, I want to talk to you.
But I also know that I should - need - to sit here and finish what hasn't been done. So before I can catch up with what the world is doing I need to look behind and do what others have, and what I should have. It's not easy - it never is, but I will do it. I don't have much time. I think that's it. I don't have time. I need time. I miss having time...
To the people who read this: I miss you (and I love you as well).
If we haven't spoken for a while, it is probably my fault and we need to reconnect.
If we've spoken recently, I still miss you anyway.
In both cases, I want to talk to you.