i think,
at that very moment when i clicked purchase, or OK, i felt instantly better - actually, almost happy. To know that plans are falling into place, but really it does feel like a very Grown Up thing to do. To plan, I don't know, things in general, and knowing that I'm mostly in charge of the decisions I make.
Also, I think, I'm very excited to See Things. I think it is with this belief that I can somehow let everything go because This Is Now and if I don't do this now then I probably won't get a chance to do it again. Still. Convenient excuses that I'm milking the most of.
Also I give up on being upset/annoyed at things I cannot change - of course this doesn't happen overnight but really, no point whatsoever. I see this now (kind of, I guess) but yes.
WOOHOO good news oyea ok.
Anyway given that it's still term time I should really go get some work done so off I go, sort of, not really, because I procrastinate
Also, I think, I'm very excited to See Things. I think it is with this belief that I can somehow let everything go because This Is Now and if I don't do this now then I probably won't get a chance to do it again. Still. Convenient excuses that I'm milking the most of.
Also I give up on being upset/annoyed at things I cannot change - of course this doesn't happen overnight but really, no point whatsoever. I see this now (kind of, I guess) but yes.
WOOHOO good news oyea ok.
Anyway given that it's still term time I should really go get some work done so off I go, sort of, not really, because I procrastinate