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howd ya do i
see youve met my faithful handyman
he just a little brought down cause when you knocked he thought you were the candyman
so i started watching it and i pausedto check LJ's
"a short note for publishing in sorrow times"
i see how happy she is...how happy they are... then i looked at the clock and realized 45 minutes went bye and the entire time i was thinking that she is much happier without me
i mean she hit me with her car
i love her to pieces
but id rather her be happy then me
cause im like that
but not at all do i want to look selfless cause i am very much selfish...
this is where i would normally state that i am fine with the friends that i have,
but i really am not,
i feel a huge hole missing in my heart with out those two
i am missing you both to a no know degree, it is impossible,
i feel the most she wants to say to me nowadays is "bye",
that is all she really says now,
i regret that one thing so much,
how so i desire a loved one like that, but i know it is once again false hopes lying to my heart,
i feel it is very much not needed for me to "spout" about my lonliness,and lack of love in my life,
everyone has heard that story over and over again,
so ill spare you,
but i do miss you two so much, its astounding, it doesnt make any sense to me,
i do love you,
it should go without saying,
her own love has given me more hugs and more words then you have,
at all do i NOT feel ungrateful for those words you have spoken, i am very much in your debt for that,
even if it isnt ,how should i put,conversation,
they tend to be more ...yes's and no's
but ill accept that,
cause thats all i have.
i cry and scream for the day when you'll call me wanting to be in my company...
but i have no clue as to when that day will be,
or if it will be at all.
i want you to know whatever happens to me,
i hope the best for the both of you
i hope for low tides so you can go and play in tide pools,
and deep oceans for you two to swim with sea turtles,
i honestly DO love you two with ALL my heart,
even more then my heart is capable of...
i think to my self is this at all possible,no,it cant be...but it is.
see youve met my faithful handyman
he just a little brought down cause when you knocked he thought you were the candyman
so i started watching it and i pausedto check LJ's
"a short note for publishing in sorrow times"
i see how happy she is...how happy they are... then i looked at the clock and realized 45 minutes went bye and the entire time i was thinking that she is much happier without me
i mean she hit me with her car
i love her to pieces
but id rather her be happy then me
cause im like that
but not at all do i want to look selfless cause i am very much selfish...
this is where i would normally state that i am fine with the friends that i have,
but i really am not,
i feel a huge hole missing in my heart with out those two
i am missing you both to a no know degree, it is impossible,
i feel the most she wants to say to me nowadays is "bye",
that is all she really says now,
i regret that one thing so much,
how so i desire a loved one like that, but i know it is once again false hopes lying to my heart,
i feel it is very much not needed for me to "spout" about my lonliness,and lack of love in my life,
everyone has heard that story over and over again,
so ill spare you,
but i do miss you two so much, its astounding, it doesnt make any sense to me,
i do love you,
it should go without saying,
her own love has given me more hugs and more words then you have,
at all do i NOT feel ungrateful for those words you have spoken, i am very much in your debt for that,
even if it isnt ,how should i put,conversation,
they tend to be more ...yes's and no's
but ill accept that,
cause thats all i have.
i cry and scream for the day when you'll call me wanting to be in my company...
but i have no clue as to when that day will be,
or if it will be at all.
i want you to know whatever happens to me,
i hope the best for the both of you
i hope for low tides so you can go and play in tide pools,
and deep oceans for you two to swim with sea turtles,
i honestly DO love you two with ALL my heart,
even more then my heart is capable of...
i think to my self is this at all possible,no,it cant be...but it is.