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Today is the last day of summer school and also the very last day of my high school career! All I can say is "YEEEEEES!!!" and "Not one milisecond too soon!" I am SOOOO ready for this. I have been waiting since i was about 8 years old to grow up and finally be an adult who is able to do things on my own. Now that it's here, it's not going to be quite as easy as i thought it would be, but i'm up for the challenge. Just being out of school opens up so many doors. It gives me a chance to wake up everyday and make the decision of what i am going to encounter that day. Instead of waking up and doing the same old school routine. I have so many options. I could wake up and find a new job, or find a way to meet some new people, or do something to help myself or the community....the window of opportunity is wide open. What I'm really happy (yet, a bit worried) about is the fact that i can decide if i want to sleep in every morning (granted i don't have to be at work). I don't know, all i can say now is "We'll see how it goes....one day at a time."! But as of today, consider me a high school graduate! *insert applause* (Also, i'm going to "officially" be an adult next friday when i turn 18!)
I felt kind of bad when i arrived at Savy's yesterday because she had a few questions about my previous LiveJournal entry. But, we talked it out and now i think (or at least hope) she understands and doesn't take it personally. Sam is driving me nuts! I don't know what to do. Well, basically, I know what to do, i just don't want to do it. I want to be Mrs. I Like To Fix Everything Because I'm Stubborn and keep trying to get him to change his mind, which i unfortunately find rather doubtful. I want to be with him so bad! I don't want to think that the past 11 (minus the 2 that i was with Saul, i suppose) months were just wasted building my hopes up and falling in love with him only to set myself up for SERIOUS heartbreak in the end. Also, i don't want to just leave him high and dry to fall into the spiritually dangerous lifestyle of Tony, Jose, Chris Cook, and everyone else he's getting involved with. His flesh wants to go in the exact opposite direction of his spirit and since his spirit is SO weak in comparison to his flesh, where do you think he's going? *two thumbs way down* I cannot keep writing about this right now....i find myself becoming angry, sad, and depressed.
I'm growing bored my friends, and i'm sure you are as well (If anyone actually takes time to read this). I shall be going.