so for the like two of you who dont know....
luke and i broke up.
i still dont get it really. he dumped me...but iknew it had to end and i never would have done it cuz i didnt want it to...it was weird. hes always been a bit weird....butl...it was good while it lasted and we ended on a good note and i still love him * which annoys me but clearly that means it was real. and i will miss him and i was happy to hear that he will miss me too and i hope he suffers somewhat and im glad he didnt try and act like we can be friends cuz uh not going to happen at least any time soon......
of course my biggest concern was our different spiritual levels and some other stuff. I dont think he was ready to commit either. and i think becuase he didnt talk things out enough with me i think he made a few assumptions about me that were unfair and untrue...but...i dont have any hard feelings....and im writing this everywhere cuz i really dont want to have to tell people as the days go by cuz its going to be hard enough as it is and yes ill be ok.
but im going t miss him like crazy
that is all.