When God doesn't make sense
I just mentioned to lifeflowson that lately my faith has been slipping. It started with another anxiety relapse this weekend. I read the scriptures over and over again, and I hummed "A Mighty Fortress is Our God" every chance I could. Nothing could take the worry away. Then I got to thinking about these past seven years of being a Christian. "Was it all
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That's kinda curious cuz I just came back to Christ after an absence which I spent trying to go back to atheism. It didn't work out. I sometimes said to myself, ok, I wanna go back to a world without God, but then I kept thinking, what about the love? The thing is, honest christianity is all about love. Love tests our honesty, and I want that to continue.
I found a sort of fire in my soul.
Rules? I don't care too much about them. I don't think there are so many rules to be watchful about. And those that are there, are there to my benefit. Ie, not desiring women keeps me focussed on loving them - I don't need sexual thoughts about women all the time, it's not turning me into a more noble person. I'm after some sort of nobility in my life, and I think God wants to see that.
But maybe you're missing more honest christians in your life, more experienced ones who not just talk the talk but walk the walk.
And at the end, really, God is the best Father you can have, there is no better one.
Maybe you need a vacation from "religion"? That could be really the case, like another poster said here that christianity is no religion but a relationship with some things considered our duty.
You'll find your way. God will lead you and show you life, but try to have some faith.
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