"Does to know thyself in the bible mean to masterbate?"
Yeah that is a question taht one of the highly intelligent and superior playboy models asked on teh show "teh girls next door" on E. yay for america. lol
i am soooooo very happy at the moment. i am in the LP with people i absolutely adore and in 2 short weeks i am back in my other home. and i am also going up to canada with kelly for our bdays on the ferry and staying in a hostil which will rock intenesely. I got to talk to an old firend who has finally come to terms with his life adn is a US marine. things are looking up. i have had an amazing summer with all my friends doeing the norm and not norm. i met new people, expanded horizons, didnt kill little kids and let go of the past. That is waht i love the most about this summer is that no matter how shitty or distant firends and family are to me, that is the past just tryign to creep up and knock me down. Now i wont allow it. i am letting go and looking to the future wwith hope bc it is so bright. i am getting along with my parents, not that i want to live at home again lol, but getting along. my mom is like my best friend and always has been the only constant friend in my life.
I dont need my past to justify my present and help me with my future anymore. As i sit here i am lisening to an amazign guy(lyds brother) play guitar wonderfully in lockport NY(i am visiting lydia for the weekend.) I just love it here. This school year will be the best of my life bc of all taht i am doing and all that i will do this year...not self destructively though. While there are some aspects of my life taht soem wont approve of im sure, i am content with where i am in this journey. I am just much mroe positive about my outlook with at times seems grim, but if you look hard enough and with the right goggles you will find your path. MY PATH HAS BEEN HIDDEN SO WEL IN GOODBYES AND CHANGES, BUT IT IS THE ONE GOD HAS PLANNED!!! and i trust god with all my heart, even tho it is rough.
like right now, one of my aunts is dying of cancer adn it is ruining soem of our family...not immediate just family. but i dont want to go into it i would go on for days. but i will say that with gods grace and aide we will make it through.
things are looking up and all it took was a phone call from an old best friend to make me change my whole attitude. good lord. life is crazy. well i am off bc we are going to lyds aunts cottage....woot. adios loves
i am soooooo very happy at the moment. i am in the LP with people i absolutely adore and in 2 short weeks i am back in my other home. and i am also going up to canada with kelly for our bdays on the ferry and staying in a hostil which will rock intenesely. I got to talk to an old firend who has finally come to terms with his life adn is a US marine. things are looking up. i have had an amazing summer with all my friends doeing the norm and not norm. i met new people, expanded horizons, didnt kill little kids and let go of the past. That is waht i love the most about this summer is that no matter how shitty or distant firends and family are to me, that is the past just tryign to creep up and knock me down. Now i wont allow it. i am letting go and looking to the future wwith hope bc it is so bright. i am getting along with my parents, not that i want to live at home again lol, but getting along. my mom is like my best friend and always has been the only constant friend in my life.
I dont need my past to justify my present and help me with my future anymore. As i sit here i am lisening to an amazign guy(lyds brother) play guitar wonderfully in lockport NY(i am visiting lydia for the weekend.) I just love it here. This school year will be the best of my life bc of all taht i am doing and all that i will do this year...not self destructively though. While there are some aspects of my life taht soem wont approve of im sure, i am content with where i am in this journey. I am just much mroe positive about my outlook with at times seems grim, but if you look hard enough and with the right goggles you will find your path. MY PATH HAS BEEN HIDDEN SO WEL IN GOODBYES AND CHANGES, BUT IT IS THE ONE GOD HAS PLANNED!!! and i trust god with all my heart, even tho it is rough.
like right now, one of my aunts is dying of cancer adn it is ruining soem of our family...not immediate just family. but i dont want to go into it i would go on for days. but i will say that with gods grace and aide we will make it through.
things are looking up and all it took was a phone call from an old best friend to make me change my whole attitude. good lord. life is crazy. well i am off bc we are going to lyds aunts cottage....woot. adios loves