Whores & Cats.
Having started using the word 'whore' to describe the women who used my loneliness at the time to try and get me to get a job, just to get money for them, even though that would have seriously endangered my safety, I do feel better.
I know it's an angry word, but I AM angry after what was done to me. After 12 years of it who wouldn't be.
So I appear to still be 'venting'. I do still have a lot of anger in me I have to say.
Money & love are simply not compatible. Love must come first, and then you work it out as best you can afterwards.
It wasn't me. It was never me. I was the one opting for fixer-uppers, and I was the one happy to show some compassion. They were the ones using pain & misery to simply get free drinks etc.
Who on earth weaponizes love & loneliness, just to get drunk, & to get a bit of cash in their back pocket too? Someone pretty grubby, clearly.
So yeah, I do feel better for saying that. My head is still a mess, but at least I have a little clarity now.
I remain a compassionate man, but I choose to be a lot more careful these days. Especially as people get poorer & more mercenary. Croydon is a shit-hole for a reason. The Locals DID do this to their own town.
The healing continues.
I do find it amusing just quite how many of the ladies in question were lied to by men trying to get into their knickers, and actually fell for said lies. Have fun with the bad boyfriends etc. I suppose that that is karma in a way :D
I know it's an angry word, but I AM angry after what was done to me. After 12 years of it who wouldn't be.
So I appear to still be 'venting'. I do still have a lot of anger in me I have to say.
Money & love are simply not compatible. Love must come first, and then you work it out as best you can afterwards.
It wasn't me. It was never me. I was the one opting for fixer-uppers, and I was the one happy to show some compassion. They were the ones using pain & misery to simply get free drinks etc.
Who on earth weaponizes love & loneliness, just to get drunk, & to get a bit of cash in their back pocket too? Someone pretty grubby, clearly.
So yeah, I do feel better for saying that. My head is still a mess, but at least I have a little clarity now.
I remain a compassionate man, but I choose to be a lot more careful these days. Especially as people get poorer & more mercenary. Croydon is a shit-hole for a reason. The Locals DID do this to their own town.
The healing continues.
I do find it amusing just quite how many of the ladies in question were lied to by men trying to get into their knickers, and actually fell for said lies. Have fun with the bad boyfriends etc. I suppose that that is karma in a way :D