PTSD Update.
You may have noticed I am not using the pretty Mediaeval font for these posts. That's because PTSD isn't pretty.
I'm still not in the dating game, as I have major trust issues still, but...
Indeed.
Yeah. I have my calm back. Well, near enough. I'm in rest-mode at the minute. Just waiting for the clouds to clear in my mind now.
I must admit I am still shocked and dismayed with just quite how ignorant and over-assumptive people have become. How on earth did this much low skill get signed off as ok? They're confident enough to try it when it is clearly cobblers. That is not a good thing.
But, then, that's Mental Health. When was the last time you had a major training program in Mental Health? Seriously?
You haven't had one have you?
Maybe you should have one. I wrote my guide for a reason...
I don't know. Seriously, I don't. The bigger the group the lower the IQ. That one does seem to be reliable. And when you are the object they have chosen to prod and poke... It sucks.
I am VERY glad to be out of Croydon. The heart of darkness is over there *points*, and I am over here *snuggles a puss*. That's fine by me. They can kick the crap out of each other, until they finally wise up, over there. Nowhere near me.
Yeah, I'm starting to get that ' I'm doing ok ' vibe back. I should be dead considering how much emotional cruelty & neglect I had to endure. To still be here is, well, not bad at all.
Rest. Rest is good. Slowly but surely things are switching back on again. Which means, naturally, that someone Croydon is going to move to kick me in again; but... They'll find it a lot harder these days. Boundaries innit.
My life goals? To live. To not be dragged under like that again. I lost 15 years to other peoples greed & selfishness. I have EVERY intention of having my life back on track ASAP. I may have lost the cyber-engineery stuff, but... the info-warfare and other tech stuff is still viable. Add to that my medical knowledge and we have stuff happening that could, well, I am starting to get hope again.
No doubt one of the local psychos still wants to pack the disabled dude off to the army but... It's obvious how crazy they are, and Fisher is gone now.
Yeah, things are finally improving. A few crazies to unlatch from me, and that's about it really.
It makes a pleasant change. Like I found at The Sun Project when I was there I just need to see people acting sane again for me to get the vibe I need. The more sanity I am surrounded by the better I'll feel. Bromley IS helping here. Socially Croydon was insane on so many levels it was confusing to follow too. A double whammy of insanity.
2 different worlds. Give it time, and more sanity being observed, and I'm sure other stuff will switch back on.
I'm still to find a peer group that likes the stuff I like to the level I like it ( Cyber BLAH etc, and not just posing ), but... We're getting there. The Show does appear to be going on :)
PS: I still find the thought of going out with an Old Granny vile. 30-somethings will be hunted when I get my vibe back fully I have to say.
PPS: Unless I can hold it in my hand and know it's real I won't be believing in it any time soon. I'm not that stupid. If you want me then get off your ass and audition :p
I'm still not in the dating game, as I have major trust issues still, but...
Indeed.
Yeah. I have my calm back. Well, near enough. I'm in rest-mode at the minute. Just waiting for the clouds to clear in my mind now.
I must admit I am still shocked and dismayed with just quite how ignorant and over-assumptive people have become. How on earth did this much low skill get signed off as ok? They're confident enough to try it when it is clearly cobblers. That is not a good thing.
But, then, that's Mental Health. When was the last time you had a major training program in Mental Health? Seriously?
You haven't had one have you?
Maybe you should have one. I wrote my guide for a reason...
I don't know. Seriously, I don't. The bigger the group the lower the IQ. That one does seem to be reliable. And when you are the object they have chosen to prod and poke... It sucks.
I am VERY glad to be out of Croydon. The heart of darkness is over there *points*, and I am over here *snuggles a puss*. That's fine by me. They can kick the crap out of each other, until they finally wise up, over there. Nowhere near me.
Yeah, I'm starting to get that ' I'm doing ok ' vibe back. I should be dead considering how much emotional cruelty & neglect I had to endure. To still be here is, well, not bad at all.
Rest. Rest is good. Slowly but surely things are switching back on again. Which means, naturally, that someone Croydon is going to move to kick me in again; but... They'll find it a lot harder these days. Boundaries innit.
My life goals? To live. To not be dragged under like that again. I lost 15 years to other peoples greed & selfishness. I have EVERY intention of having my life back on track ASAP. I may have lost the cyber-engineery stuff, but... the info-warfare and other tech stuff is still viable. Add to that my medical knowledge and we have stuff happening that could, well, I am starting to get hope again.
No doubt one of the local psychos still wants to pack the disabled dude off to the army but... It's obvious how crazy they are, and Fisher is gone now.
Yeah, things are finally improving. A few crazies to unlatch from me, and that's about it really.
It makes a pleasant change. Like I found at The Sun Project when I was there I just need to see people acting sane again for me to get the vibe I need. The more sanity I am surrounded by the better I'll feel. Bromley IS helping here. Socially Croydon was insane on so many levels it was confusing to follow too. A double whammy of insanity.
2 different worlds. Give it time, and more sanity being observed, and I'm sure other stuff will switch back on.
I'm still to find a peer group that likes the stuff I like to the level I like it ( Cyber BLAH etc, and not just posing ), but... We're getting there. The Show does appear to be going on :)
PS: I still find the thought of going out with an Old Granny vile. 30-somethings will be hunted when I get my vibe back fully I have to say.
PPS: Unless I can hold it in my hand and know it's real I won't be believing in it any time soon. I'm not that stupid. If you want me then get off your ass and audition :p