Poems
Here are some of the poems I've written.
They kind of have all ratings, nothing too high, though. And some of them are pretty honest, so don't be startled.
Lonely Star
Lonely star, my only light
comforting me on a sleepless night.
I can't sleep,
my emotions run too deep.
My flowing tears,
do you know my fears?
Dark loneliness,
I must confess,
I fear the most,
for 'tis despair's host.
You Don't Know Me
You don’t know me, you don’t understand.
Do you see the notebook in my hand?
I’m writing the words I want to scream in your face.
But I don’t ‘cause it’s a hopeless case.
You think you’re perfect, but you’re not.
Though all the guys think you’re hot.
You hate me and I don’t know why,
But no, you’ll never see me cry.
‘Cause you don’t know me, you don’t understand
Do you see the notebook in my hand?
I’m writing the words I want to scream in your face.
But I don’t ‘cause it’s a hopeless case.
I hear your whispers, don’t you know?
And every time it hurts, it’s a blow.
My two best friends, they left because of you,
But you won’t get rid of me,
I’m gonna see this through.
‘Cause you don’t know me, you don’t understand
Do you see the notebook in my hand?
I’m writing the words I want to scream in your face.
But I don’t ‘cause it’s a hopeless case.
One day, I know, it will be done.
I’ll still be myself, but you’ll be alone.
I could have freaked out at you a long time ago,
But something in my head said no,
They’re not worth it, let them go.
Fantasy Part I: Tower Room
Staircases winding to the top
To a room where I stop
I open the door
Red roses cover the floor
In the centre stands a bed
As the sunset tints it red
I move over and lie down
Black locks surround me,
a darkened crown
As night descends
And day ends
Through the window I watch a crow
Gliding through the falling snow
The moonlight a silver stream
I fall asleep and start to dream
He comes to me, his lips descend
On mine
I wish this moment would never end
He whispers my name
And starts a game
Of passion and love
As stars shine above
Fantasy Part II: A Ruby Shower
A ruby shower
I feel your power
As you draw from my life
Ending my strife
You lead me through the night
Making darkness right
The place where I belong
I listen to its song
A ruby drop
But I don’t want you to stop
Draw out my life
Take me to the top
Take me to your fortress
Make me your mistress
Let me share your life in death
Your every breath
For all eternity
You shall have me
We shall be forever
Taking lives together
Living from their ruby life
Ending all their strife
Showing them the ruby shower
Making them feel your power
We have forever
To love and be together
I shall be your queen
As I have always been
Our love is undying
The love and death we bring
We feed on the ruby stream
In ruby darkness
We live a dream
In darkness lies
What mortals despise
It is their death
From which we draw breath
Go To Hell
Go to hell
It would suit you well
To meet that fate
It would soothe my hate.
Go tell hell
For I can tell
It’s where you belong
You don’t see you’re wrong.
Go to hell
I don’t need you to tell
me who I am
Cause I don’t give a d**n.
Your superficial attitude
Will do you no good.
Cause you never understood
That what you would
If you opened your eyes
And looked past the lies
You would see I despise
To make this compromise
So I shut up
And swallow your cup
Of venom to cut me
Cause my tears you won’t see.
Go to hell
I say farewell
Will you see you were wrong?
Or is it where you belong?
You Tear Me Under
You tear me under
You press me down
under the power of your crown
You leave me no way
to say what I need to say
You yell at me to intimidate
You don't really want to awake my hate
You blackmail me
hoping for change
You don't see
I'm way out of your range
You think you do me good
Crushing me under your boot
You can't know what I feel
Caring only for what is to you real
I don't have your acceptance
in what I do or who I am
But you were never willing
to give me a chance
You subdue me
how I am, what I feel
is not what you want to see
The person who is to others real
Do you feel guilty you could not shape me?
The way you wanted me to be?
Well, I'm sorry
It would have been a pathetic way to me
And now you try to change me still
Am I a creature so against your will?
There's many things you didn't teach me
I taught myself the ability to be me
You still tear me asunder
Threaten and shout
Yes, for me there's no way out
You relish that, don't you?
Relish all the things you can do
I have no power
While you sit on your tower
Searching the person you will never see
The person who you wanted me to be
Shout, yell, blackmail and hurt
Subdue me, crush me, call me dirt
If it makes you content,
for the person you wish for is non-existent
A Loveletter in Blood
Give me a razor
I'll sign across my heart
I love you
I die when we're apart
Give me a razor
I'll sign across my chest
The pain I feel is the best
To remind me that it's you
keeping me alive
Temporarily ending my strife
Give me a dagger
I'll sign it down my arm
Only you can make me feel warm
Give me an icicle, sharpened and cold
to deepen the hole
that swallows my soul
Give me a hook to rip out my heart
to make this lonely feeling depart.
Pierce My Prison
There’s nothing here
Nothing to counter my fear
Time stretches, tears me apart
This suffocating pressure won’t leave my heart
The songs that remind me
These feelings that bind me
My emotions that flow
refuse to freeze with the snow
Paralyzed like the flowers in ice
They grip my heart, crush it like a vice.
Make me want to weep
To fall prey to eternal sleep
The tears I cry
Fill the bed of the river that ran dry
But now it’s alive again
The world of light and dark where you now reign
The winds to take away my sorrow
Won’t be back until tomorrow
Though ‘tis only hope I own
So I hope they will come.
On your wings of light
You heal with your flight
The power to ease my sorrows
Is only yours to bestow.
Don’t do this to me
It causes so much you can’t see
Struggling on in my fight
Not released ‘til the fall of night
The prison of fear
When you’re not here
Is where I dwell
With feelings that are fell
Anger I should not feel
Pain that is too real
Waiting for the disease
To make me freeze, to make me cease
Waiting for night
When all will be right
When your light will pierce these walls
Penetrating the black halls
Break down this fortress of distress
Blow apart the bars of this prison
Come to me my eternal sun
Let us leave, be on the run
‘Til one day it’s only you I can feel
When you will finally be all real
More real than we could ever feel
The day that I see you here
Your light will flood my fortress of tears
They kind of have all ratings, nothing too high, though. And some of them are pretty honest, so don't be startled.
Lonely Star
Lonely star, my only light
comforting me on a sleepless night.
I can't sleep,
my emotions run too deep.
My flowing tears,
do you know my fears?
Dark loneliness,
I must confess,
I fear the most,
for 'tis despair's host.
You Don't Know Me
You don’t know me, you don’t understand.
Do you see the notebook in my hand?
I’m writing the words I want to scream in your face.
But I don’t ‘cause it’s a hopeless case.
You think you’re perfect, but you’re not.
Though all the guys think you’re hot.
You hate me and I don’t know why,
But no, you’ll never see me cry.
‘Cause you don’t know me, you don’t understand
Do you see the notebook in my hand?
I’m writing the words I want to scream in your face.
But I don’t ‘cause it’s a hopeless case.
I hear your whispers, don’t you know?
And every time it hurts, it’s a blow.
My two best friends, they left because of you,
But you won’t get rid of me,
I’m gonna see this through.
‘Cause you don’t know me, you don’t understand
Do you see the notebook in my hand?
I’m writing the words I want to scream in your face.
But I don’t ‘cause it’s a hopeless case.
One day, I know, it will be done.
I’ll still be myself, but you’ll be alone.
I could have freaked out at you a long time ago,
But something in my head said no,
They’re not worth it, let them go.
Fantasy Part I: Tower Room
Staircases winding to the top
To a room where I stop
I open the door
Red roses cover the floor
In the centre stands a bed
As the sunset tints it red
I move over and lie down
Black locks surround me,
a darkened crown
As night descends
And day ends
Through the window I watch a crow
Gliding through the falling snow
The moonlight a silver stream
I fall asleep and start to dream
He comes to me, his lips descend
On mine
I wish this moment would never end
He whispers my name
And starts a game
Of passion and love
As stars shine above
Fantasy Part II: A Ruby Shower
A ruby shower
I feel your power
As you draw from my life
Ending my strife
You lead me through the night
Making darkness right
The place where I belong
I listen to its song
A ruby drop
But I don’t want you to stop
Draw out my life
Take me to the top
Take me to your fortress
Make me your mistress
Let me share your life in death
Your every breath
For all eternity
You shall have me
We shall be forever
Taking lives together
Living from their ruby life
Ending all their strife
Showing them the ruby shower
Making them feel your power
We have forever
To love and be together
I shall be your queen
As I have always been
Our love is undying
The love and death we bring
We feed on the ruby stream
In ruby darkness
We live a dream
In darkness lies
What mortals despise
It is their death
From which we draw breath
Go To Hell
Go to hell
It would suit you well
To meet that fate
It would soothe my hate.
Go tell hell
For I can tell
It’s where you belong
You don’t see you’re wrong.
Go to hell
I don’t need you to tell
me who I am
Cause I don’t give a d**n.
Your superficial attitude
Will do you no good.
Cause you never understood
That what you would
If you opened your eyes
And looked past the lies
You would see I despise
To make this compromise
So I shut up
And swallow your cup
Of venom to cut me
Cause my tears you won’t see.
Go to hell
I say farewell
Will you see you were wrong?
Or is it where you belong?
You Tear Me Under
You tear me under
You press me down
under the power of your crown
You leave me no way
to say what I need to say
You yell at me to intimidate
You don't really want to awake my hate
You blackmail me
hoping for change
You don't see
I'm way out of your range
You think you do me good
Crushing me under your boot
You can't know what I feel
Caring only for what is to you real
I don't have your acceptance
in what I do or who I am
But you were never willing
to give me a chance
You subdue me
how I am, what I feel
is not what you want to see
The person who is to others real
Do you feel guilty you could not shape me?
The way you wanted me to be?
Well, I'm sorry
It would have been a pathetic way to me
And now you try to change me still
Am I a creature so against your will?
There's many things you didn't teach me
I taught myself the ability to be me
You still tear me asunder
Threaten and shout
Yes, for me there's no way out
You relish that, don't you?
Relish all the things you can do
I have no power
While you sit on your tower
Searching the person you will never see
The person who you wanted me to be
Shout, yell, blackmail and hurt
Subdue me, crush me, call me dirt
If it makes you content,
for the person you wish for is non-existent
A Loveletter in Blood
Give me a razor
I'll sign across my heart
I love you
I die when we're apart
Give me a razor
I'll sign across my chest
The pain I feel is the best
To remind me that it's you
keeping me alive
Temporarily ending my strife
Give me a dagger
I'll sign it down my arm
Only you can make me feel warm
Give me an icicle, sharpened and cold
to deepen the hole
that swallows my soul
Give me a hook to rip out my heart
to make this lonely feeling depart.
Pierce My Prison
There’s nothing here
Nothing to counter my fear
Time stretches, tears me apart
This suffocating pressure won’t leave my heart
The songs that remind me
These feelings that bind me
My emotions that flow
refuse to freeze with the snow
Paralyzed like the flowers in ice
They grip my heart, crush it like a vice.
Make me want to weep
To fall prey to eternal sleep
The tears I cry
Fill the bed of the river that ran dry
But now it’s alive again
The world of light and dark where you now reign
The winds to take away my sorrow
Won’t be back until tomorrow
Though ‘tis only hope I own
So I hope they will come.
On your wings of light
You heal with your flight
The power to ease my sorrows
Is only yours to bestow.
Don’t do this to me
It causes so much you can’t see
Struggling on in my fight
Not released ‘til the fall of night
The prison of fear
When you’re not here
Is where I dwell
With feelings that are fell
Anger I should not feel
Pain that is too real
Waiting for the disease
To make me freeze, to make me cease
Waiting for night
When all will be right
When your light will pierce these walls
Penetrating the black halls
Break down this fortress of distress
Blow apart the bars of this prison
Come to me my eternal sun
Let us leave, be on the run
‘Til one day it’s only you I can feel
When you will finally be all real
More real than we could ever feel
The day that I see you here
Your light will flood my fortress of tears