Applying to college is BORING! Writing on livejournal is FUN!

[chrissy_goes_gr]

I don't understand this change,
if it is only in my head or in my age or it is universal.
Or maybe there is no change,
perhaps I have been in denial.

I can't figure out if I'm driven by emotions
or have unconsciously decided to accept consequential emotions as they come.
And I'm not sure which I'd prefer.

I find myself enjoying quiet
or being around strangers (in a waiting room) 
who don't expect me to talk 
or sing well
or anything.
I like that they can pass judgment
based only on my leopard print boots
(that are falling apart)
and my toocurious glances.
Although, maybe they're not judging.
Maybe I go completely unnoticed.
Maybe I would hate that.

Ha.