Forgive and Forget
Dear loved ones
Today was Sunday. Easter Sunday. Something amazing happened this Sunday a long time ago. Since then, many more amazing things have happened. I know that even in the midst of all Earth's conflict, God still had the heart to forgive everyone.
Have you ever had a fight with someone that was close to you? Have you fought so hard that you don't remember what it was like to be friends? Was the pain so bad that you didn't know how it was going to get back to the way it was? I can't answer no.
I think about how i'm going to say sorry. I rehearse the scene over and over in my head. Some people do this, but they never actually get to do it for real. Anthony told me long ago when we were young that the only thing standing in the way of forgiveness, is pride. People don't want to say sorry. I used to think they would think less of me if i apologised. Truth is, if you had a fight with someone, he probably thinks less of you already. Whats the point of pride? There's always someone better than me. There's even always someone better than me in every single way possible. What do I have to be proud of? Why do I value something as abstract as pride over something as real as a friend?
You probably have had even worse fights than me. I'm just a 19 year old kid. Some of you will say "this chris doesn't know what the heck he's talking about." Some might feel that too much has been said. Too much pain was inflicted and too many issues have been raised. You wish none of it had ever happened. "Don't bother" you tell yourself. You don't expect the other person to forgive you. How can they? You've done horrible things. Why should you be the one to apologise? They've done worse to you. I hope with all my being that the 2 of you are reading this. It's impossible. Not many people read this blog. But if by grace that you are, just ask yourself, is my pride worth my best friend? Is my pride worth my family? Is my pride worth anything at all? If your answer was no, then you know what you have to do.
Tell that person that you are sorry. Tell that person that you didn't mean all those things you said and did. Tell that person that you want him/her badly and you'll do anything to get back to where you were. Give him/her the power to make everything right. Does it matter how you look? If what you had before was so good, wouldn't the other person want it back too? I'm not saying this will work. It may, or it may not. If it does, tomorrow will be one of the most blessed days of your life. If the other decides to ignore you, if he/she decides to be more hostile and reject you again, don't fret. Let them search their own souls. They know that it took the bigger person to come and put their tender heart on the line, just for the sake of the relationship. If they still don't show you the love that you deserve, God will, and I will.
Happy Easter!
Total Love
Chris
Today was Sunday. Easter Sunday. Something amazing happened this Sunday a long time ago. Since then, many more amazing things have happened. I know that even in the midst of all Earth's conflict, God still had the heart to forgive everyone.
Have you ever had a fight with someone that was close to you? Have you fought so hard that you don't remember what it was like to be friends? Was the pain so bad that you didn't know how it was going to get back to the way it was? I can't answer no.
I think about how i'm going to say sorry. I rehearse the scene over and over in my head. Some people do this, but they never actually get to do it for real. Anthony told me long ago when we were young that the only thing standing in the way of forgiveness, is pride. People don't want to say sorry. I used to think they would think less of me if i apologised. Truth is, if you had a fight with someone, he probably thinks less of you already. Whats the point of pride? There's always someone better than me. There's even always someone better than me in every single way possible. What do I have to be proud of? Why do I value something as abstract as pride over something as real as a friend?
You probably have had even worse fights than me. I'm just a 19 year old kid. Some of you will say "this chris doesn't know what the heck he's talking about." Some might feel that too much has been said. Too much pain was inflicted and too many issues have been raised. You wish none of it had ever happened. "Don't bother" you tell yourself. You don't expect the other person to forgive you. How can they? You've done horrible things. Why should you be the one to apologise? They've done worse to you. I hope with all my being that the 2 of you are reading this. It's impossible. Not many people read this blog. But if by grace that you are, just ask yourself, is my pride worth my best friend? Is my pride worth my family? Is my pride worth anything at all? If your answer was no, then you know what you have to do.
Tell that person that you are sorry. Tell that person that you didn't mean all those things you said and did. Tell that person that you want him/her badly and you'll do anything to get back to where you were. Give him/her the power to make everything right. Does it matter how you look? If what you had before was so good, wouldn't the other person want it back too? I'm not saying this will work. It may, or it may not. If it does, tomorrow will be one of the most blessed days of your life. If the other decides to ignore you, if he/she decides to be more hostile and reject you again, don't fret. Let them search their own souls. They know that it took the bigger person to come and put their tender heart on the line, just for the sake of the relationship. If they still don't show you the love that you deserve, God will, and I will.
Happy Easter!
Total Love
Chris