random ramblings.

[chow__]

 “Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just

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[poisonjewel]

i liked this entry cos you're pretty damn honest with yourself.
that's one thing about you, you say things the way you think of them and you don't mince the words, which sometimes is scary but it's good as well. i wouldn't say i hate the person you've become but you've definitely change and sometimes i really miss the abf i had last year.

we did stupid little things like take photos crazily in lygon park, we watched

[poisonjewel]

oops i accidentally pressed post. anw we watched movies and it was fun :) you have changed a lot and if you were happy with your life now, then i'd support you and tell you that the change was okay. but since you're not happy with your life and realise it's all empty and meaningless then i think you should change back to who you were.

you don't exactly have to give up wearing make up, shopping and all those. but it's more of the inner transformation to be happy with yourself no matter what the outside is. i think everyone goes through a phase where he/she chases all the things that he/she thinks'll make him/her happy. and then you realise that at the end of it, you're just chasing nothing because you keep chasing something and once you get it, you realise it was worth nothing.

so i think you should just do whatever makes you truly happy, and not bother about what people think or anything else :) because those who really love you, would want you to be truly happy and would stick by you no matter what.

♥

[chow__]

thanks babe. you are so sweet.
love you long time.

sometimes

[anonymous]

sometimes i felt like giving up on you.
I seen you from last year till now, drastic changes i would say.
You wouldnt look for us unless when it's exam period, though you swear you would study every beggining of the semester.
you wouldnt ask us out unless you need our help.I just wanna tell you this because you are being so honest towards yourself.
you didnt like me last year, and honestly, I would prefer that if you are old pei ling.I wouldnt mind you disliking me.
sometimes, you treat us like that, we felt use. just if you want to know.