random ramblings.
“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.”
-Meredith
Yes, it's the exam period once again. The time of the year that we, students dread most. God, does it ever end? But then again, when we get out to work, we'll wish we were back in school. It's this period where most people are at home because we'll all feel bad if we go out to play. What do we do when we don't feel like studying and there just isn't anything good on tv? We'll update our facebook and blogs, go on msn and chat with the rest of the world who's equally bored.
Yihui just asked me to ask her a question that i always wanted to ask her but didn't have the guts to. I couldn't think of one (maybe it's because i'm quite a daring and straightforward person so everything that i think of, come straight out of my mouth) so i asked her to ask me one instead. She asked: Why did you turn out like that after going to Australia?
I asked her "What's like that? Sex? Smoking? Drinking? Clubbing?
She added "Maybe your academic woes as well."
And I told her that "I haven't been a really good student since i stepping into Secondary School, always studying only a day before my exams. As for the smoking and drinking and clubbing, it was part of socialising. But I don't club that often anymore. And as for the sex, i used it to get love."
And then I thought to myself, what if I transformed myself back to the person I used to be last year? I didn't club, didn't smoke, didn't have sex, didn't study much as well (but definately 10 times harder compared to this year), didn't dress up, didn't shop, didn't wear make up. Was I a happier person last year? I think I was. I indulged in simple pleasures like going for movies with Lala, going online and talking to those I loved back in Singapore, eating slice after slice of nutella and peanut butter bread, going to the gym, hanging out with the others at TOAB. The days past by slowly and I did not live my life to the fullest but I didn't feel empty. I did not care what the world thought of me. I did not care if i offended someone.
This year hasn't been easy for me. I made too many mistakes. Thank God for those who were there to catch me when I feel into the pits. It's good to know that you've always got some people to help you climb back up. These angels are God-sent. They always say that if you never make mistakes, you'll never learn. I'm still in the process of learning so please give me time.
Friends vs Family. Sarah came down for Shumei's birthday and as she's been staying at mine, she said something to me that day that made so much sense. She said, people with siblings (e.g Shujun who has 3 other sisters) wouldn't mind losing a friend or two. They can afford to make MANY MANY friends even if they are not close. That's only because they know that their siblings will always be there for them. But these people with too many siblings, especially if they are close to their siblings, they sometime forget that they have parents as well. They tend to love their siblings more than their parents. As for only-childs like Sarah and I, friends mean much more to us as we do not have siblings to share our secrets with. However, we appreciate our parents a lot more as they are the ones who are always there for us since young. They would try to cover our mistakes outside of home (e.g. in school) and help us beg for leniency only to give us a good hard lecture at home. They are also the only people that we'll go to when the rest of the world turns their back on us. To me, family will always come first but my friends also play an important role in my life.
“At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. [...] The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.”
-Meredith
Okay. That's all folks.
-Meredith
Yes, it's the exam period once again. The time of the year that we, students dread most. God, does it ever end? But then again, when we get out to work, we'll wish we were back in school. It's this period where most people are at home because we'll all feel bad if we go out to play. What do we do when we don't feel like studying and there just isn't anything good on tv? We'll update our facebook and blogs, go on msn and chat with the rest of the world who's equally bored.
Yihui just asked me to ask her a question that i always wanted to ask her but didn't have the guts to. I couldn't think of one (maybe it's because i'm quite a daring and straightforward person so everything that i think of, come straight out of my mouth) so i asked her to ask me one instead. She asked: Why did you turn out like that after going to Australia?
I asked her "What's like that? Sex? Smoking? Drinking? Clubbing?
She added "Maybe your academic woes as well."
And I told her that "I haven't been a really good student since i stepping into Secondary School, always studying only a day before my exams. As for the smoking and drinking and clubbing, it was part of socialising. But I don't club that often anymore. And as for the sex, i used it to get love."
And then I thought to myself, what if I transformed myself back to the person I used to be last year? I didn't club, didn't smoke, didn't have sex, didn't study much as well (but definately 10 times harder compared to this year), didn't dress up, didn't shop, didn't wear make up. Was I a happier person last year? I think I was. I indulged in simple pleasures like going for movies with Lala, going online and talking to those I loved back in Singapore, eating slice after slice of nutella and peanut butter bread, going to the gym, hanging out with the others at TOAB. The days past by slowly and I did not live my life to the fullest but I didn't feel empty. I did not care what the world thought of me. I did not care if i offended someone.
This year hasn't been easy for me. I made too many mistakes. Thank God for those who were there to catch me when I feel into the pits. It's good to know that you've always got some people to help you climb back up. These angels are God-sent. They always say that if you never make mistakes, you'll never learn. I'm still in the process of learning so please give me time.
Friends vs Family. Sarah came down for Shumei's birthday and as she's been staying at mine, she said something to me that day that made so much sense. She said, people with siblings (e.g Shujun who has 3 other sisters) wouldn't mind losing a friend or two. They can afford to make MANY MANY friends even if they are not close. That's only because they know that their siblings will always be there for them. But these people with too many siblings, especially if they are close to their siblings, they sometime forget that they have parents as well. They tend to love their siblings more than their parents. As for only-childs like Sarah and I, friends mean much more to us as we do not have siblings to share our secrets with. However, we appreciate our parents a lot more as they are the ones who are always there for us since young. They would try to cover our mistakes outside of home (e.g. in school) and help us beg for leniency only to give us a good hard lecture at home. They are also the only people that we'll go to when the rest of the world turns their back on us. To me, family will always come first but my friends also play an important role in my life.
“At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. [...] The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.”
-Meredith
Okay. That's all folks.