undecided
I feel really lost right now.
I feel unattractive. Desperate. Undecided. Alone.
It's not as if I can't call up any of my friends and say "hello" for an instant cheer-up. I should, but something always stops me. It's not as if they'll really understand anyway. I feel like I've kept too much of myself inside. I'm always happy to them, I'm never deep. I've built my own prison, and now I'm stuck. How do I get out?
I also feel like I let little things affect me too greatly. I have to knock some sense into my head. I don't know him, so how can I love him- how can I let him control my emotions like this? I'm so angry at myself.
I need to grow up. I need to change. Why can't I tell anyone how I really feel? Why am I so restricted to pouring out my feelings anonymously through a blog? It's so frustrating, I hate it.
Tomorrow is a new day. I am going to work on improving myself, for myself.
I feel unattractive. Desperate. Undecided. Alone.
It's not as if I can't call up any of my friends and say "hello" for an instant cheer-up. I should, but something always stops me. It's not as if they'll really understand anyway. I feel like I've kept too much of myself inside. I'm always happy to them, I'm never deep. I've built my own prison, and now I'm stuck. How do I get out?
I also feel like I let little things affect me too greatly. I have to knock some sense into my head. I don't know him, so how can I love him- how can I let him control my emotions like this? I'm so angry at myself.
I need to grow up. I need to change. Why can't I tell anyone how I really feel? Why am I so restricted to pouring out my feelings anonymously through a blog? It's so frustrating, I hate it.
Tomorrow is a new day. I am going to work on improving myself, for myself.