This is after the best sex of my life, mind you. lol ohhh Keith... what am I going to do about you?
Bahhh
I am just such a jealous person I think.
Or maybe I'm just an emotional person.
I dunno.
But I hate hearing him talk about other girls. It really hurts my feelings lol.
I wonder if I'll ever be just right for someone.
Or if someone will ever be just right for me.
And I wonder why I'm not captivating enough.
And I wonder why I'm not cute enough.
And I wonder if I'll ever know what it feels like again... Maybe my heart is a little dead inside.
Maybe I've been hurt too much before to let anyone else in.
Or maybe there is room for someone else in there. But he won't accept the invitation.
Maybe.
I have so m any pressing thoughts
So much confusion.
unanswered questions and a constant desire to hide how I feel from him.
I don't want him to know that he makes me soo happy.
And I don't want him to know that he makes me feel so worthless.
At least he's honest.
props.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to be me.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't care so much about other people.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't always have tot ake it upon myself to make others happy.
I wish that I could jsut not care.
Cut my heart out of me and run around not giving a fuck about what happens to anybody just like most people do to me. That'd be pretty tight.
To just cut out the emotion in me.
lol
oh no Beth Miller,
Today is supposed to be a good day.
I am just such a jealous person I think.
Or maybe I'm just an emotional person.
I dunno.
But I hate hearing him talk about other girls. It really hurts my feelings lol.
I wonder if I'll ever be just right for someone.
Or if someone will ever be just right for me.
And I wonder why I'm not captivating enough.
And I wonder why I'm not cute enough.
And I wonder if I'll ever know what it feels like again... Maybe my heart is a little dead inside.
Maybe I've been hurt too much before to let anyone else in.
Or maybe there is room for someone else in there. But he won't accept the invitation.
Maybe.
I have so m any pressing thoughts
So much confusion.
unanswered questions and a constant desire to hide how I feel from him.
I don't want him to know that he makes me soo happy.
And I don't want him to know that he makes me feel so worthless.
At least he's honest.
props.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to be me.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't care so much about other people.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't always have tot ake it upon myself to make others happy.
I wish that I could jsut not care.
Cut my heart out of me and run around not giving a fuck about what happens to anybody just like most people do to me. That'd be pretty tight.
To just cut out the emotion in me.
lol
oh no Beth Miller,
Today is supposed to be a good day.