evil cordy
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This Night. 28 Mar 2004 blp
I stood in my palace and watched the skyline as the night turned black and the lights of the city brightened and stood out in all directions. As the children walked through their lives, never knowing we are here. Never knowing the danger that they barely escape, simply because we haven't time to bring them into our world yet. Our children now, controlled by our every move. My every wish. His every desire. Almost every little thing we dreamed will be true, with only some slight annoyances that don't seem to be going away.
They enjoy their ignorance, even if it is only a screen to keep them from falling apart. How could they not know something else walks this world? They know but they don't admit. I remember being like them. It only lasts for so long.
I curled my fingers over the edge of the railing and smiled. I smiled because i knew something they did not. Tomorrow when they wake up, the city will be almost completely taken. Every person of power, every last person who held any authority will be ours. And when the people open their eyes they will feel that dread deep inside and try to shake it off. But somewhere in them, they will know and their skin will continue to crawl even under the warmth of the sun that has forsaken them. I will shine and i will make them bleed. And every step of the way, my soldiers will bow to me. Every single step they take will be orchestrated by us. Angelus does as he will, I will let him do what he wants, as long as his passion for death and artistry in it doesn't effect our goal. The things he dreams are breathtaking and remind me why he is here with me.
I ran my hands down my arms as a wind chilled me and caused goosebumps to form on my skin. It felt like adrenaline was surging through me as i watched the blood red moon rise across the dark horizion as though it was aware of what this night meant.
I stopped smiling and gazed blankly out at the beginning of my chosen night. It would go smoothly, or many would die. They would not want to dissapoint me, they had seen what happened to people who dissapoint me. He deals with them as I would, as I haven't needed to lately. Fear holds them more tightly to this cause than any amount of hope could.
21 Apr 2004 second evil post. blp
I could feel things and they disgusted me to my core.
They were running, the weak ones were trying to abandon us and be saved. They don't seem to understand that they cannot be saved. In much the same way that I am pretty sure I can't be saved. Me... the monster, the girl who crouches in the back of my mind, or maybe even someone else. I am what I was meant to be. Not her, not what I once was. All I know for sure is that somewhere in me all of this is important. Whether i live or die means nothing, I just have to make sure the plan plays out.
I wouldn't mind surviving. It would be easier to enjoy hell on earth if I exist in it. Any way it goes, I will still be worshipped. Every day i can feel them and I hear of how many normal humans join MY cause. I never knew dealing death every day and night would be so pleasurable. Even if I die, I will still exist. Everything about me will survive, even if this body does not. I can hear a whispering inside, and I can not help but try and destroy it. It doesn't deserve to exist. She never even deserved this body to begin with.
I had to make an example today, it was almost fun. Almost. Everything so far is tedious. The joy has gone out of it with the missing of my partner. I had to kill a teenage boy because his father wouldn't stay with us willingly. He found what we left of his son and he came back to us. I guess he really did want to keep his daughter. I would never have thought to do that to someone, especially keeping them alive long enough into the process to make it worth the effort. I hope his son doesn't kill him when he awakes tomorrow as a vampire, if he does we will have to dust him or set him loose on the other side. We do need someone with brains to maintain our human front until we have everything completely under control.
I know that I will have to make an example of one of those pathetic people who believe that things will be fine. it's not like they even understand what's going on, let alone why we are doing this. I guess they will find out when they need to.
There is so much to do still. It's breathtaking, the magnitude of what we do. If I didn't know how important this was, i would be in awe of how well they listen. For almost two thousand years this has been coming... And now this war is finally here.
This Night. 28 Mar 2004 blp
I stood in my palace and watched the skyline as the night turned black and the lights of the city brightened and stood out in all directions. As the children walked through their lives, never knowing we are here. Never knowing the danger that they barely escape, simply because we haven't time to bring them into our world yet. Our children now, controlled by our every move. My every wish. His every desire. Almost every little thing we dreamed will be true, with only some slight annoyances that don't seem to be going away.
They enjoy their ignorance, even if it is only a screen to keep them from falling apart. How could they not know something else walks this world? They know but they don't admit. I remember being like them. It only lasts for so long.
I curled my fingers over the edge of the railing and smiled. I smiled because i knew something they did not. Tomorrow when they wake up, the city will be almost completely taken. Every person of power, every last person who held any authority will be ours. And when the people open their eyes they will feel that dread deep inside and try to shake it off. But somewhere in them, they will know and their skin will continue to crawl even under the warmth of the sun that has forsaken them. I will shine and i will make them bleed. And every step of the way, my soldiers will bow to me. Every single step they take will be orchestrated by us. Angelus does as he will, I will let him do what he wants, as long as his passion for death and artistry in it doesn't effect our goal. The things he dreams are breathtaking and remind me why he is here with me.
I ran my hands down my arms as a wind chilled me and caused goosebumps to form on my skin. It felt like adrenaline was surging through me as i watched the blood red moon rise across the dark horizion as though it was aware of what this night meant.
I stopped smiling and gazed blankly out at the beginning of my chosen night. It would go smoothly, or many would die. They would not want to dissapoint me, they had seen what happened to people who dissapoint me. He deals with them as I would, as I haven't needed to lately. Fear holds them more tightly to this cause than any amount of hope could.
21 Apr 2004 second evil post. blp
I could feel things and they disgusted me to my core.
They were running, the weak ones were trying to abandon us and be saved. They don't seem to understand that they cannot be saved. In much the same way that I am pretty sure I can't be saved. Me... the monster, the girl who crouches in the back of my mind, or maybe even someone else. I am what I was meant to be. Not her, not what I once was. All I know for sure is that somewhere in me all of this is important. Whether i live or die means nothing, I just have to make sure the plan plays out.
I wouldn't mind surviving. It would be easier to enjoy hell on earth if I exist in it. Any way it goes, I will still be worshipped. Every day i can feel them and I hear of how many normal humans join MY cause. I never knew dealing death every day and night would be so pleasurable. Even if I die, I will still exist. Everything about me will survive, even if this body does not. I can hear a whispering inside, and I can not help but try and destroy it. It doesn't deserve to exist. She never even deserved this body to begin with.
I had to make an example today, it was almost fun. Almost. Everything so far is tedious. The joy has gone out of it with the missing of my partner. I had to kill a teenage boy because his father wouldn't stay with us willingly. He found what we left of his son and he came back to us. I guess he really did want to keep his daughter. I would never have thought to do that to someone, especially keeping them alive long enough into the process to make it worth the effort. I hope his son doesn't kill him when he awakes tomorrow as a vampire, if he does we will have to dust him or set him loose on the other side. We do need someone with brains to maintain our human front until we have everything completely under control.
I know that I will have to make an example of one of those pathetic people who believe that things will be fine. it's not like they even understand what's going on, let alone why we are doing this. I guess they will find out when they need to.
There is so much to do still. It's breathtaking, the magnitude of what we do. If I didn't know how important this was, i would be in awe of how well they listen. For almost two thousand years this has been coming... And now this war is finally here.