Threshold
"There is not one big cosmic meaning for all, there is only the meaning we each give to our life, an individual meaning, an individual plot, like an individual novel, a book for each person."
Anais Nin
Here we go again. It seems that I am standing at a crossroads with a big life decision. Not sure where I will end up but hoping for the best. My time as a stay at home mom is coming to an end regardless. I've learned so much, I've grown so much. And I'm not 100% ready to be done. Like everything else there have been pros and cons but overall I am glad things went the way they did. It is a good lesson for me that taking the reign and making a change, taking a risk, it can lead to so much more even if the path isn't a little rocky getting there.
As much as that is all on my mind I have been harboring moments in my head that I want to remember. For those times that I am feeling, down, overwhelmed.
One is my night of freedom with Josh at a wedding when we danced and drank the night away up in the Minneapolis skyline under a glass dome. We didn't have a care in the world. We had fun, we enjoyed one another and spent our first night away since becoming parents. It was just perfect.
The other is a day in the park with Owen. I finished everything on my to-do list and the rest of the day was just about exploring and playing at the park. It was warm early fall weather and he was full of joy. There was no time limit, no awkward interactions with other people. Just him and I being in the moment.
Life is just flying by. These are the moments to live for.
"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle."
Anais Nin
Anais Nin
Here we go again. It seems that I am standing at a crossroads with a big life decision. Not sure where I will end up but hoping for the best. My time as a stay at home mom is coming to an end regardless. I've learned so much, I've grown so much. And I'm not 100% ready to be done. Like everything else there have been pros and cons but overall I am glad things went the way they did. It is a good lesson for me that taking the reign and making a change, taking a risk, it can lead to so much more even if the path isn't a little rocky getting there.
As much as that is all on my mind I have been harboring moments in my head that I want to remember. For those times that I am feeling, down, overwhelmed.
One is my night of freedom with Josh at a wedding when we danced and drank the night away up in the Minneapolis skyline under a glass dome. We didn't have a care in the world. We had fun, we enjoyed one another and spent our first night away since becoming parents. It was just perfect.
The other is a day in the park with Owen. I finished everything on my to-do list and the rest of the day was just about exploring and playing at the park. It was warm early fall weather and he was full of joy. There was no time limit, no awkward interactions with other people. Just him and I being in the moment.
Life is just flying by. These are the moments to live for.
"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle."
Anais Nin