i dont even know what to say.
im not over abel. it sucks. everytime i see his gf pangs of jealousy oercome me!!! and i want her to go away! sometimes i think about it and i wish she would just break his heart, just so he would com running back to me, but then i feel bad and selfish so i take it back. i hate this i really do. in my last enrty i was tlaking about how i just need to grit my teeth and bare the pain, but cant its sooo hard and i hate it! sometimes i wish hed stop talking to me, or i had the strength to stop talking to him, but then , once again, i feel horribe for thnking that so i take that back too. im an emotional indian giver...idk what to do with my self....fuck.