strange happenings of tonight
so, i got my shit back from doug, or at least some of it. he is holding other stuff hostage i think so he can be like "hey, i found your (insert object here), i'll bring it over."
that was a weird experience. we talked a lot, so that was good, but he's so vague and weird and flip-floppy about everything it makes it hard to have a substantial conversation.
i think he is finally starting to feel the burn of having nobody he can talk to about anything ( and who would actually give a shit.) he always goes into these apologetic monologues about how he wished i could be the boyfriend i wanted him to be. that speech always pisses me off for two reasons: 1, i've heard it a billion and a half times, and 2, i am very low maintenance, i asked him not to lie to me and not to cheat on me. he managed to do both in every possible combination. so what the fuck? is that too hard for people to do? mostly i just hate that in his mind, he tried and couldn't reach my impossible standards for relationships or something. he elaborated on why we couldn't be friends. he said we were compatible as friends, but that when we were around each other it was too weird not to touch me and stuff. he kept unnecessarily grabbing my hand and touching the small of my back and stuff. it was really weird. you could see his internal struggle to not kiss me when we said goodnight to each other. THAT was weird. especially since i was by no means offering it. i probably would have kneed him in the balls. i think he is going to drop out of school. his parents pay for literally everything now, plus a two hundred dollar a week allowance, so why go to school? doug is one of those people who if they see a way out of a hard situation, they take it. and that's not necessarily always bad, but it prevents him from ever actually reaching full potential. i know he'd feel a little bad for dropping out, but console himself with the oodles of cash he'd make working for his dad full time. it's so weird to watch people's convictions desintigrate over time.
oh well. enough doug talk. i need to study for economics and watch the first half of six feet under, which i missed. BRENDA GAVE SOME DUDE A HAND JOB! i knew about it in advance, but i was still rather surprised.
i am thinking of making sea_foam_green my primary journal. i like the name better.
that was a weird experience. we talked a lot, so that was good, but he's so vague and weird and flip-floppy about everything it makes it hard to have a substantial conversation.
i think he is finally starting to feel the burn of having nobody he can talk to about anything ( and who would actually give a shit.) he always goes into these apologetic monologues about how he wished i could be the boyfriend i wanted him to be. that speech always pisses me off for two reasons: 1, i've heard it a billion and a half times, and 2, i am very low maintenance, i asked him not to lie to me and not to cheat on me. he managed to do both in every possible combination. so what the fuck? is that too hard for people to do? mostly i just hate that in his mind, he tried and couldn't reach my impossible standards for relationships or something. he elaborated on why we couldn't be friends. he said we were compatible as friends, but that when we were around each other it was too weird not to touch me and stuff. he kept unnecessarily grabbing my hand and touching the small of my back and stuff. it was really weird. you could see his internal struggle to not kiss me when we said goodnight to each other. THAT was weird. especially since i was by no means offering it. i probably would have kneed him in the balls. i think he is going to drop out of school. his parents pay for literally everything now, plus a two hundred dollar a week allowance, so why go to school? doug is one of those people who if they see a way out of a hard situation, they take it. and that's not necessarily always bad, but it prevents him from ever actually reaching full potential. i know he'd feel a little bad for dropping out, but console himself with the oodles of cash he'd make working for his dad full time. it's so weird to watch people's convictions desintigrate over time.
oh well. enough doug talk. i need to study for economics and watch the first half of six feet under, which i missed. BRENDA GAVE SOME DUDE A HAND JOB! i knew about it in advance, but i was still rather surprised.
i am thinking of making sea_foam_green my primary journal. i like the name better.