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and yet again I return to livejournal...my home
sooo lee and I have been together for about 6 months...once again I find myself at cross roads of whether I should take my love and stay unhappy or end it knowing I had love and being miserable I let it go...either way it sucks. If my life had a theme song it would definately be an emo one...something by dash bord, or yellow card...you know something along those lines.
for those of you who don't know I Got a DUI on feb1...my court date was march 14 now I owe 2 grand which I am paying all by my lonesome. My first probation meeting is Feb. 20 just a few days (god I miss *eed) and that's when I pay those fucking bastards 1000 dollars....a 1000 dollars I Worked fucking hard for...gone. I Dont have to pay it all so fast but the quicker I can pay off my fines the more of a chance I have for my probation to get shortened to 6 months from 12 months and I Find out how long my license is suspended (cross ur fingers 6 months...180 days) So once again it's all up in the air and I have to hope for the best outcome. Thank God I got that job at Chilli's rather than sunglass hut...but if I was at sunglass hut I probably wouldn't have had the money for the beer I bought which then would've prevented the whole thing but oh well nothing I can do about it now...my goal is to pay everything off in 2 months well lemme rephrase that I plan on paying 1000 on the 20th then save up for another month...and then take my DUI classes.... which will take an entire saturday sunday monday and tuesday...woo.... then take a week off and work and save more money....then take my counseling classes (god knows how much those are gonna cost) and then all I'll have left is community service and hopefully I can do something else rather than pic up trash for 40 hours out of my life...Hopefully I can do my community service at collins hill with the dance department....I'm going to talk to Ms. Cruise as soon as I get a verdict from my probatoin officer...so see this is do-able...expensive...but do-able. And since I'm so smart and starting saving my money first day I got out of jail...I'm not struggling to pay money I'm just barely making...cause had I not started saving I wouldn't even be able to make my 1st payment by Tuesday (357 a month plus 43 for a probatoin fee everytime I go) so you see why I want to pay it off as soon as possible...the longer I take...the longer I stay on probatoin the more money I have to pay cuz right now in total my probatoin fee is 480 dollars for the entire 12 months but if I get it shortened to 6 months then I only owe about 300 and I save 180 that will most likely go to my dui class or counseling....w/e that's more money in my pocket and shortens the expense of my dui to 1820 see now that doesn't look so bad haha.
anyways I'm determined to do this without even breaking a sweat just because everyone thinks I won't be able to pay it off in 2 or 3 months and have everything done and I strongly beg to differ. Everyone didn't think I'd be able to move out and pay insurance and a phone bill and gas and groceries and I've been doing just fine until this little bump in the road...but you know what...better now than later I'd hate to be 25 years old and get a dui and not be able to drive for 6 months and have to miss work and stuff....it's better it happened while I'm young that way even though it's on my record it'll be like "oh she was young and dumb" and not "oh she's an idiot and a raging alcoholic" which really I am either way but w/e I've got this and I'm not afraid not one bit.
On top of this dui buisness I think I'm going to take out a loan or get grants or w/e for school (perimeter of course) and my goal is to be done with school with my bachelors in massage therapy and have a job by summer 2009 if I don't already have a job before then which will give me a salary of 30,000 a year a minimum depending on if I work in a spa or doctor's office...you know. I can't wait an apartment will be my first order of buisness and then save up some money and buy a car but only if I can put a down payment of half of w/e the car costs which by the time I can afford one the car I want will be used and will only cost around ten grand maybe so a down payment of 5 grand on a 30 thousand dollar salary and only supply for myself well I don't think that's half bad it'll just take me a little over a year to pay it off now there's something most adults won't even do.
see I may fuck up...but I'm very smart...and for a while I seriously doubted if I had any brains left...I may not be very book smart when it comes to math and science...or even grammar but I know how to manage my money and I know how to get my hands on what I want with a reasonable out come. I really do hope I can be one of the first people from the class of 2006 to actually have my career and be able to go to all my teachers and prove to them even if I failed a few classes and got bad grades...even though I fell it to drugs heavy for a while...even with my dui I still came out on top in the end. And that's what usually brings me out of situatoins like this...IT takes a really low blow for me to finally just do what I need to do and before you know it...it's all a memory...just a memory.
I'm sure no one has read this far but if you have you might as well leave me a comment so I don't feel so dumb for writing all this but mainly I wrote this for me so when I do get that job and that diploma I can look back on this entry and prove to myself if no one else that I really DID everything I SAID I was gonna do and didn't fail...cause I don't fail...in one way or another I succeed because we all know I can't handle failure and I Don't take no for an answer.
Well I guess that's it...now I've gotta get ready to go party for St. Pattie's Day...YAY!
~Mel
sooo lee and I have been together for about 6 months...once again I find myself at cross roads of whether I should take my love and stay unhappy or end it knowing I had love and being miserable I let it go...either way it sucks. If my life had a theme song it would definately be an emo one...something by dash bord, or yellow card...you know something along those lines.
for those of you who don't know I Got a DUI on feb1...my court date was march 14 now I owe 2 grand which I am paying all by my lonesome. My first probation meeting is Feb. 20 just a few days (god I miss *eed) and that's when I pay those fucking bastards 1000 dollars....a 1000 dollars I Worked fucking hard for...gone. I Dont have to pay it all so fast but the quicker I can pay off my fines the more of a chance I have for my probation to get shortened to 6 months from 12 months and I Find out how long my license is suspended (cross ur fingers 6 months...180 days) So once again it's all up in the air and I have to hope for the best outcome. Thank God I got that job at Chilli's rather than sunglass hut...but if I was at sunglass hut I probably wouldn't have had the money for the beer I bought which then would've prevented the whole thing but oh well nothing I can do about it now...my goal is to pay everything off in 2 months well lemme rephrase that I plan on paying 1000 on the 20th then save up for another month...and then take my DUI classes.... which will take an entire saturday sunday monday and tuesday...woo.... then take a week off and work and save more money....then take my counseling classes (god knows how much those are gonna cost) and then all I'll have left is community service and hopefully I can do something else rather than pic up trash for 40 hours out of my life...Hopefully I can do my community service at collins hill with the dance department....I'm going to talk to Ms. Cruise as soon as I get a verdict from my probatoin officer...so see this is do-able...expensive...but do-able. And since I'm so smart and starting saving my money first day I got out of jail...I'm not struggling to pay money I'm just barely making...cause had I not started saving I wouldn't even be able to make my 1st payment by Tuesday (357 a month plus 43 for a probatoin fee everytime I go) so you see why I want to pay it off as soon as possible...the longer I take...the longer I stay on probatoin the more money I have to pay cuz right now in total my probatoin fee is 480 dollars for the entire 12 months but if I get it shortened to 6 months then I only owe about 300 and I save 180 that will most likely go to my dui class or counseling....w/e that's more money in my pocket and shortens the expense of my dui to 1820 see now that doesn't look so bad haha.
anyways I'm determined to do this without even breaking a sweat just because everyone thinks I won't be able to pay it off in 2 or 3 months and have everything done and I strongly beg to differ. Everyone didn't think I'd be able to move out and pay insurance and a phone bill and gas and groceries and I've been doing just fine until this little bump in the road...but you know what...better now than later I'd hate to be 25 years old and get a dui and not be able to drive for 6 months and have to miss work and stuff....it's better it happened while I'm young that way even though it's on my record it'll be like "oh she was young and dumb" and not "oh she's an idiot and a raging alcoholic" which really I am either way but w/e I've got this and I'm not afraid not one bit.
On top of this dui buisness I think I'm going to take out a loan or get grants or w/e for school (perimeter of course) and my goal is to be done with school with my bachelors in massage therapy and have a job by summer 2009 if I don't already have a job before then which will give me a salary of 30,000 a year a minimum depending on if I work in a spa or doctor's office...you know. I can't wait an apartment will be my first order of buisness and then save up some money and buy a car but only if I can put a down payment of half of w/e the car costs which by the time I can afford one the car I want will be used and will only cost around ten grand maybe so a down payment of 5 grand on a 30 thousand dollar salary and only supply for myself well I don't think that's half bad it'll just take me a little over a year to pay it off now there's something most adults won't even do.
see I may fuck up...but I'm very smart...and for a while I seriously doubted if I had any brains left...I may not be very book smart when it comes to math and science...or even grammar but I know how to manage my money and I know how to get my hands on what I want with a reasonable out come. I really do hope I can be one of the first people from the class of 2006 to actually have my career and be able to go to all my teachers and prove to them even if I failed a few classes and got bad grades...even though I fell it to drugs heavy for a while...even with my dui I still came out on top in the end. And that's what usually brings me out of situatoins like this...IT takes a really low blow for me to finally just do what I need to do and before you know it...it's all a memory...just a memory.
I'm sure no one has read this far but if you have you might as well leave me a comment so I don't feel so dumb for writing all this but mainly I wrote this for me so when I do get that job and that diploma I can look back on this entry and prove to myself if no one else that I really DID everything I SAID I was gonna do and didn't fail...cause I don't fail...in one way or another I succeed because we all know I can't handle failure and I Don't take no for an answer.
Well I guess that's it...now I've gotta get ready to go party for St. Pattie's Day...YAY!
~Mel