School
school - noun [skool]
1. an institution where pupils/students learn from teachers.
cha·os - noun [kay-os]
1. a state of utter confusion or disorder; a total lack of organization or order.
Wonder which this place is...?
Back from the trip with Matt this weekend and made it to school on Monday. And... felt... weird, on Monday. Then again, it seems a lot of people have felt weird.
Life is rather... messed, right now. Matt likes Near. I haven't the slightest idea as to why. But they were kissing. More than once. And Near got to see Matt with his goggles off. So... yeah. If Near likes him back, we'll be one big stupid triangle.
I made (kinda) up with Near and Matt, though. I think.
Near appears to be in love with... *gags*... Yagami. *shudders* What's even WORSE is when I offered to 'distract' him from his pining for a serial murderer, he commented that he might not be distracted at all, just think of him in a different way.
...great day, y'know?
...
NEAR WAS GOING TO FANTASIZE ABOUT YAGAMI AND HE WAS KISSING MATT AND MATT LIKED MIDNA AND NEAR WITH YAGAMI AND OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO HURL
...
So... yeah. I talked to Near the other day about the whole thing with Matt and kinda like bared my soul, and I thought he returned the sentiment. Now he reveals that he's in love with Yagami. Because him being a mass murderer, apparently, is a turn on.
...who wouldn't be missed around here?
And Matt thinks I would look better as a girl. More attractive, at any rate. I've never before thought my lack of globulous bags of fat hanging off my ribs would make me unattractive. Nor my lack of a regular cycle of sobbing and being a bitch and bleeding like a stuck pig.
...I don't want to be a girl.
I went to the park with Ritsuka the other day. It was... ... it was really nice. And... I genuinely enjoyed spending time with him and taking pictures and just having fun. I just wanted to be nice to him and make him smile.
Which is really, really weird. I've never wanted to be nice to anyone. I'm always mean to them first. I mean, I hated Near for how many years? I fought with Matt first, and just ask Midna about how I mocked her for being emo. But now I'm being nice...?
Too weird. Way too weird.
He told me he likes someone else, though. Maybe that'll help me get over whatever the hell this is.
...and that shouldn't make me feel like crap, damnit!!
1. an institution where pupils/students learn from teachers.
cha·os - noun [kay-os]
1. a state of utter confusion or disorder; a total lack of organization or order.
Wonder which this place is...?
Back from the trip with Matt this weekend and made it to school on Monday. And... felt... weird, on Monday. Then again, it seems a lot of people have felt weird.
Life is rather... messed, right now. Matt likes Near. I haven't the slightest idea as to why. But they were kissing. More than once. And Near got to see Matt with his goggles off. So... yeah. If Near likes him back, we'll be one big stupid triangle.
I made (kinda) up with Near and Matt, though. I think.
Near appears to be in love with... *gags*... Yagami. *shudders* What's even WORSE is when I offered to 'distract' him from his pining for a serial murderer, he commented that he might not be distracted at all, just think of him in a different way.
...great day, y'know?
...
NEAR WAS GOING TO FANTASIZE ABOUT YAGAMI AND HE WAS KISSING MATT AND MATT LIKED MIDNA AND NEAR WITH YAGAMI AND OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO HURL
...
So... yeah. I talked to Near the other day about the whole thing with Matt and kinda like bared my soul, and I thought he returned the sentiment. Now he reveals that he's in love with Yagami. Because him being a mass murderer, apparently, is a turn on.
...who wouldn't be missed around here?
And Matt thinks I would look better as a girl. More attractive, at any rate. I've never before thought my lack of globulous bags of fat hanging off my ribs would make me unattractive. Nor my lack of a regular cycle of sobbing and being a bitch and bleeding like a stuck pig.
...I don't want to be a girl.
I went to the park with Ritsuka the other day. It was... ... it was really nice. And... I genuinely enjoyed spending time with him and taking pictures and just having fun. I just wanted to be nice to him and make him smile.
Which is really, really weird. I've never wanted to be nice to anyone. I'm always mean to them first. I mean, I hated Near for how many years? I fought with Matt first, and just ask Midna about how I mocked her for being emo. But now I'm being nice...?
Too weird. Way too weird.
He told me he likes someone else, though. Maybe that'll help me get over whatever the hell this is.
...and that shouldn't make me feel like crap, damnit!!