a day of chocolate for the lactose intolerant
family. yes. almost all live in this 'shithole' to quote snick. i love them and god i can't wait to leave. i am going to go and leave everything behind... i haven't been so stressed for several years. last time the outcome wasn't good, and if i stay trapped i can't imagine it'll come out much better?
trapped
hide in my corner built of tension
watch the blood pulse in the walls ever shrinking
slowly drops a crimson drop
landing
disolving
and leaving me here alone again
myself and myself
to drive my self to insanity
between the sunshine and the storms
my raincloud leaves me only when i'm outdoors
but trapped as i am in my corner
i am ever indoors
ever wet beneath this crying lifecloud
today was a bit of a downer. i feel so boxed in today. will someone get me out of here?
MOOD :
angry at self for ruining something beautiful...
(you know how that disturbs me, timothy)
angry at family for ignoring me because i don't speak...
angry at myself for my silence
happy he was online
sad he was not
prepared to sleep in an icy room
dying to free it
overall. broken.
trapped
hide in my corner built of tension
watch the blood pulse in the walls ever shrinking
slowly drops a crimson drop
landing
disolving
and leaving me here alone again
myself and myself
to drive my self to insanity
between the sunshine and the storms
my raincloud leaves me only when i'm outdoors
but trapped as i am in my corner
i am ever indoors
ever wet beneath this crying lifecloud
today was a bit of a downer. i feel so boxed in today. will someone get me out of here?
MOOD :
angry at self for ruining something beautiful...
(you know how that disturbs me, timothy)
angry at family for ignoring me because i don't speak...
angry at myself for my silence
happy he was online
sad he was not
prepared to sleep in an icy room
dying to free it
overall. broken.