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As little as I wanna say it, it really bugs me that he's always fucked up (Kyle if you're reading this [Yes you Spigakkens] then I'm sure you can relate). I mean sure being fucked up is BEAST man but I mean really...all the time?? Its like at the point where he can't have fun or w/ever unless he's high or drunk. and if neither of the options are available then there's just absolutely nothing to do that's worth doing. Cause I mean yea watching movies and hiking and walking and getting into mischief and FUCKING and eating and watching the stars even if its cold.......or talking to friends about absolute nothing just because it pwns....or to about something to someone that you care about....or being creative....streaking lol ( I wanna cry lol but I refuse to get emotional). *Dr. Phil moment* I mean my best bet is that since he has these "social anxieties" that whenever he's high then he can shirk the urge to recluse away into introspective mode and be "socially acceptable" or at least what he interprets to be as such. Granted that when he's high or drunk or w/ever yea he's much more "open" but....that openess is compromised. *Now I'm back lol* I just want him to be him for him....but more so than anything I want him just to be him with no influence. I dunno I'm really upset and I have been for the past few days. GOD IT SUCKS I NEED TO JUST GET OVER IT!!!!!!! But I need to get to bottom of why he seems to be acting so weird first lol. I'ts prolly just me but w/ever...I'll see.
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