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[choclatethunder]

Wow so I don't think I've updated LJ this much in a while! I'm on a friggin role hellz yea! Anyway, Thanksgiving break was pretty cool. Instead of going home which woudld'a been nice (although I wasn't at all in the mood to deal with the rents.....and the rent's rents lol) I went home with Lina for Thanksgiving. I had ham, chicken, turkey, and POOOOOOOO-tatoes (You know you love it Lina lmao). It was really good and then I also had my first slice of pumpkin pie! I was so excited :) I ate SO much these past few days its ridiculous! Oh well I CERTAINLY could use the extra......whatever lol. Anyway we got back to Hendersonville at Lina's apartment. I met Michael Anglin's b/f....yay. Then they had the idea to go to Scandal's....YAY!...."wait I need to get my ID"...."oh that's fine take my car and go get it real quick"........I shoulda just nipped that shit in the bud right quick. But so yea long story short I got lost as shit...AGAIN. I hate myself when I do but that's a long and depressing story why. But yea oh well I'm back on campus. I'll prolly not admit to anywhere on Myspace (cause he's on it) but I can't hlep thinking about Joe AND IT MAKES ME FUCKIN SICK!! I'm no crush whore! I mean granted I think he's pretty cool or w/ever but do I seriously care about him? EhhI'd hate to admit that shit. I'm not too fond of guys anyway. Aside from the fact that I'm not too sure if I care for him genuinely or not the only big reason I can't see myself dating him (aside from the fact that GUYS SUCK!! lol j/k.....but not really) is because he arties SO much and it doesn't bother me but it'd be nice to be sober a lot of the time so that the drunken or high times are that much more significant lol. That's the most profound bullshit I have ever jotted in ever lol. But oh well. I do like him I won't lie...but I wish he didn't party so much. I just don't want to feel like he has to change for me. But another thing that has been bothering me is....call me crazy but I think he's been acting kinda weird lately. I mean if that's the case then I'm used to that shit so w/ever but the problem is is that I can't really tell :( And even if I was used to it the fact that its Joe makes it suck. I really don't want shit to fuck up in our friendship...extended friendship...or......???? He's a really good guy like REALLY and he's so genuine and sweet and un pretentious and just "perfect" for me at least :) But then again I dunno we're still on a w/ever happens happens basis. So ehh. AAAAAaaanyway I'm listening to this CD that I burned from Lina's that had all of my fav. songs on it one of them being "Best I Ever Had" by David Gray and another the second movement from Scriabin's secong piano sonata (BITCHIN!!) But anyway enough about Joe and music...he'll be over here in a bit I guess but I'm not even sure I want him to be here lol...that sucks to say. I doubt he's really being an asshole though so I'll leave that alone. RACHAEL WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU!!!!

Laterz!

<-Kev->