resolutions...
so,
why make a "new years resolution" when i know that by giving whatever my goal is that title, i won't do whatever it is. so, i'll settle for making goals.
as for an update:
i've realized that i hate new years eve. i hate thta it's used as an excuse to go get trashed. i'm not into thta and it seems like i can't go to a party to be with people i like and not see thta happen. so, my "goal" for the next new years eve is to do what i want aka, stay somewhere all night and just chill out, make a great dinner, and watch good movies. i guess i just don't feel the need to celebrate in the new year...it's more of a reflective time for me.
in an odd way, i miss the way my time goes when the holidays aren't happening. i feel like i can balance it out so much better then. not a real big issue though.
wow, i really haven't done any updating in a while...i had the best christmas i've ever had, despite the ugly weather, i made it work. the company was great for the holiday :-)
i have found that the best times i've had the entire break have been when i'm with 3 certain people alone. one whom has come to be my best friend, greatest confidant, and someone i deeply love since i haven't had the girls in my life as much. the second is the greatest friend i could ever ask for, and the third i have missed having around so much, i forget how much she makes me life and how comfortable i feel talking to her. their company has fed my holiday spirit.
i find that i'm so much more low key these days. i know the girls see that as a big change in me thta they may not really like, but it's made my life so much easier. i feel like i don't worry so much like i used to and one thing i've stopped in particular is asking my famous question: "are you ok?" i feel so much more...
ALIVE
7...what a lucky number.
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why make a "new years resolution" when i know that by giving whatever my goal is that title, i won't do whatever it is. so, i'll settle for making goals.
as for an update:
i've realized that i hate new years eve. i hate thta it's used as an excuse to go get trashed. i'm not into thta and it seems like i can't go to a party to be with people i like and not see thta happen. so, my "goal" for the next new years eve is to do what i want aka, stay somewhere all night and just chill out, make a great dinner, and watch good movies. i guess i just don't feel the need to celebrate in the new year...it's more of a reflective time for me.
in an odd way, i miss the way my time goes when the holidays aren't happening. i feel like i can balance it out so much better then. not a real big issue though.
wow, i really haven't done any updating in a while...i had the best christmas i've ever had, despite the ugly weather, i made it work. the company was great for the holiday :-)
i have found that the best times i've had the entire break have been when i'm with 3 certain people alone. one whom has come to be my best friend, greatest confidant, and someone i deeply love since i haven't had the girls in my life as much. the second is the greatest friend i could ever ask for, and the third i have missed having around so much, i forget how much she makes me life and how comfortable i feel talking to her. their company has fed my holiday spirit.
i find that i'm so much more low key these days. i know the girls see that as a big change in me thta they may not really like, but it's made my life so much easier. i feel like i don't worry so much like i used to and one thing i've stopped in particular is asking my famous question: "are you ok?" i feel so much more...
ALIVE
7...what a lucky number.
c
h
i
z