Oh my fucking gods,
that thread is still going on!!!
I wish I could determine what nature of creature it is so that I can put it out of its misery in the most tortuous manner possible.
And sadly, though I said I was bowing out, I got dragged back in at least temporarily. And ended up having to
tell Todd off again for the second gods damned time. Not that he will read it I'm sure, not that he will give a flying shit if he does. He is Apollon's numbed fingers after all, who cares with a lowly mortal like me has to say.
Gods, that man is such an insufferable ass. This is the most I have ever interacted with him directly since being here in the community and I've already beyond had it with him. I completely see what people have been saying about him for some time now. He used to be a pillar in the community, used to be someone I had some amount of respect for although it was at a great distance (something about him pegged him as unapproachable, I don't know what but I do wonder now if it wasn't some air of smugness, some vague hint of the potential for this shit). He has pretty much ruined that now. He keeps this shit up, and maybe in a couple of years he can be another raving lunatic like Timmeh, starting his own forum trying to recruit the weak and stupid among us to add to his Apollonian Body, "Come on guys, who wants to be Apollon's left pinkie toe?" (the second part of that last sentence may be a smart ass exaggeration on my part, the first half definitely isn't)
I really don't want this to develop into a complex with me, I don't want to go around outright dismissing anyone with a focus on philosophy from my world sphere. Its not all about the demographic, its the people in them and just because some people suck doesn't mean everyone does. But dear gods, there are so fucking many of these people! There is something seriously wrong here. This is not the kind of shit philosophy should be leading you to, not the kind of shit religion in general should be leading you into. People at least claim to read and study and think that fucking much, and yet still miss the mark by a fucking light year.
My relationship with Hermes generally inspires me to not (always) be the massive dick it comes naturally to me to be. As far as I'm concerned in the public community (my Livejournal does not count, this is my brain dump and you all chose to be here knowing what a shit I am), I am a representative of Hermes. I don't call myself such generally and it doesn't matter to me if others don't recognize me as such, in this context it matters only that I think it, that I consider that as a person claiming a close and intense relationship with Hermes that he initiated, what I say and how I act reflects on him (again, even if it doesn't as far as anyone else is concerned). That doesn't mean I need to always be meek and mild, come off as the nice guy and never slap people for their shit, in my own opinion that is not what Hermes is about, some people need to be knocked down a couple pegs after all. But that does mean things like trying to tolerate foreign views, not shoving my opinions down everyone's throat, not attacking unless the person is truly deserving of it and not coming off like such a malicious ass that no one listens to what I say anymore.
You'd think, being so enlightened and doing so much contemplation, someone would have a few similar feelings on public conduct. If we do, its certainly not visible. Well, we are Apollon's numbed fingers, and I guess by that we mean the middle finger, don't we?
This time I am truly done with these worthless philosophers. That right there is about as nasty as I am willing to get on a public forum, I'm not dragging everyone else down further than they already have been. Now I'm done. Let him continue trumpeting to all of us just how fucking great he is, as though truly great men actually need to do such things, or would even want to. Maybe he'll even get a couple people to believe him and stroke his ego a little more for him, I won't be one of them.
And I won't be dragged back in even if I have to put that ass on ignore. I just might do that anyway. He has proven, beyond any shadow of a doubt to me, that he has nothing to say that's worth listening to.
Piss off and die.