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i literally haven't been able to cry in a very long time. i can't tell you the last time i cried...until now. i was sleeping and woke up to a text from my friend Brian about going to the cemetery to visit Frank's grave tomorrow. we had plans to go, i thought they were during the week "sometime" but apparently it was set for tomorrow and i made a dr
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working an odd schedule with long hours usually fucks up your social life a bit, unfortunately..:/ ....but it's reality in this line of work. even with security or law enforcement, same thing. you work nights, weekends and holidays.....and i didn't work as intense hours as you, but it sure did affect me too. i still enjoy working irregular hours, though...but not overnight! and not doubles!
but i guess i'm glad i'm not doing it anymore....i haven't seen you to tell you about it though. what an epic fail.
and yeah, i guess part of growing up is that you don't see friends as much (due to work, of course)....it sucks, but it doesn't necessarily have to be that way. you'll figure it out :)
as for the boy situation...i know how you feel! once upon a time many years ago, i was in a similar situation....and when i see/think about this guy, i still feel something. it really sucks and i guess i'm still disappointed it didn't turn out the way i thought it would or could. you know? when you're with a person and the conversation flows and everything seems to be working just fine and there's nothing obviously in the way. then for seemingly no reason, it just stopped. big bummer.
however, i do believe that things happen for a reason...no matter how shitty the situation is, there is something to be learned and other doors that will open to the 'right' paths. if not for the most crappy situations in our lives, we would not be who we are or be pushed to do the things that do make us happy....
so, i hope you find those doors that are open to you...and that you have a merry christmas and a better 2010! :)
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