hope.......
hope,its really this little bird on this really cool lighter my mother gave me yesterday.it really made me happy,something i had almost forgot had exsisted.i've been seeing much of my lighter lately and everytime i see it,it makes me feel worse and worse,my thoughts are pretty blank right now and i feel nothing but pain and agony,i also feel failure and me quiting everything running away.but i cant let that happened you know too much rest on me i guess i only promised people i would make through school.i dont even know what i'm really saying right now cause i cant think right now here at this moment.i dont know what the fuck happened why the fuck it happened if i deserved it or what but i dont know really what the fuck to do and i dont know who the fuck to talk to right now,its all really lost to me everything i had is now just a one blur whats to come next?i dont know i havent thought about it much......i think this is the part were i get depressed and confused and try to find myself again....all thats left is pain without confort,without feeling,left with only tears to run and anger to overcome