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I've felt incredibly... lonely the past few weeks. I know its silly, and that people around me "love" me... but it just feels so fake sometimes. It's kind of a joke, you know? And really i'm just posting this to myself... because nobody cares to read this.
Isn't the term love used way too much? I've been thinking about it. Whenever someone tells me that they "love me", I never say it back. It's not that I don't... love them per say... but really love doesn't mean what it used to. Meh, I don't know. I guess that people actually don't say that they love me very often. Which... I guess is alright. I figure that if people told me that more, I wouldn't feel the way that I do about the term. But knowing me, I'll start saying it right after I post this.
I don't know why... lying in bed last night trying to fall asleep like I normally do... imagining little movies in my head... and it just donned on me... I'm really lonely... not
"I need a guy to fulfill my life" but like "one is the loneliest number" lonely. And I don't know what to do about it. People at work don't care. And I'm starting to feel like people at home don't either. And I don't want to talk to anybody at my moms about it. and my dad's... i'm normally too tired to talk at all.
I don't know what to do
Isn't the term love used way too much? I've been thinking about it. Whenever someone tells me that they "love me", I never say it back. It's not that I don't... love them per say... but really love doesn't mean what it used to. Meh, I don't know. I guess that people actually don't say that they love me very often. Which... I guess is alright. I figure that if people told me that more, I wouldn't feel the way that I do about the term. But knowing me, I'll start saying it right after I post this.
I don't know why... lying in bed last night trying to fall asleep like I normally do... imagining little movies in my head... and it just donned on me... I'm really lonely... not
"I need a guy to fulfill my life" but like "one is the loneliest number" lonely. And I don't know what to do about it. People at work don't care. And I'm starting to feel like people at home don't either. And I don't want to talk to anybody at my moms about it. and my dad's... i'm normally too tired to talk at all.
I don't know what to do