this love has definately taken its fuckign toll on me
fuckign life has been good, i eman through all the misleadings and all the bullsthi of every day, im stilll haveing a hell of a tiem ,a nd will ocntinue to...
tonight got shitted on but whatever, clearly for the better, at least i found out some important truths.
i thought what happened the other night, waht clicked, waht was permanent, but clearly wasnt permanen=t, you are not permanent, once again im tghe fuckign fall back, you will deny it but its true, there is just something about you that doenst go away, through all the girls and all the bullshit, you are the one i dont let go of, yeah its wierd and obsessive, and yeah youve hurt me more than anyone could, i could care less, the fact that i still wanted somethitng after all that, is rediculous, i thought it was fate, wasnt, fate sucks but its all for the better, youll regret it someday, just wiat, and im not gonna say i wont be there for you, cus i will, all im gonna say is taht you fucked it up, and you ruined it, and the reason it will always lack that purity, is your fault, not mine, it was perfect, but was never perfect, you are the only one in the world that doesnt want it, so i guess i just represent safety, im too safe, far too safe, im not for you, you need someone on the edge, someone who has no boundaries, and will do anything, someone who is so out of control they never get mad at you, you need someone who doest have the love i do, cus i love too much, but i always do that, so when you read this like i know you will just realize that i cant doi th is anymore, and dont give me false hope, cus it suskcs, and no im not gonna be depressed about this, im not gonna even bring it up agian, dont expect the phone calls, and dont expect the special treatment or the comfort that comes with me, just feel guilty when you are with him and clearly have feelings for me, i feel bad for him, a good kid like me wronged, damn sorry dude i guess i fucked it up for both of us... whatever y ou probably hate me after this but its probably for the better, having you still want me in your life has hurt me, so maybe if you hate me, it will be easier, so i know you want to so go ahead, or give me a call sometime, your choice...
wow that was/is pathetic.... i need a fuckign life so bad and college, i am clearly way to muhc of a little fuckign kid... in a week ill be past this and okay with life again, until then ill be fine, just slowly ease the pain away, not that big of a deal anyways... i just hope you realize what you do to people and why your life is just like "there's something about mary" you can insert the name im sure you know who its about... yeah well ill cya later on this subject....
other than the bullshit i love summer, and i cant wait for so many things, fourth of july, summer with the best, and gettign fubar forever.... peace out
tonight got shitted on but whatever, clearly for the better, at least i found out some important truths.
i thought what happened the other night, waht clicked, waht was permanent, but clearly wasnt permanen=t, you are not permanent, once again im tghe fuckign fall back, you will deny it but its true, there is just something about you that doenst go away, through all the girls and all the bullshit, you are the one i dont let go of, yeah its wierd and obsessive, and yeah youve hurt me more than anyone could, i could care less, the fact that i still wanted somethitng after all that, is rediculous, i thought it was fate, wasnt, fate sucks but its all for the better, youll regret it someday, just wiat, and im not gonna say i wont be there for you, cus i will, all im gonna say is taht you fucked it up, and you ruined it, and the reason it will always lack that purity, is your fault, not mine, it was perfect, but was never perfect, you are the only one in the world that doesnt want it, so i guess i just represent safety, im too safe, far too safe, im not for you, you need someone on the edge, someone who has no boundaries, and will do anything, someone who is so out of control they never get mad at you, you need someone who doest have the love i do, cus i love too much, but i always do that, so when you read this like i know you will just realize that i cant doi th is anymore, and dont give me false hope, cus it suskcs, and no im not gonna be depressed about this, im not gonna even bring it up agian, dont expect the phone calls, and dont expect the special treatment or the comfort that comes with me, just feel guilty when you are with him and clearly have feelings for me, i feel bad for him, a good kid like me wronged, damn sorry dude i guess i fucked it up for both of us... whatever y ou probably hate me after this but its probably for the better, having you still want me in your life has hurt me, so maybe if you hate me, it will be easier, so i know you want to so go ahead, or give me a call sometime, your choice...
wow that was/is pathetic.... i need a fuckign life so bad and college, i am clearly way to muhc of a little fuckign kid... in a week ill be past this and okay with life again, until then ill be fine, just slowly ease the pain away, not that big of a deal anyways... i just hope you realize what you do to people and why your life is just like "there's something about mary" you can insert the name im sure you know who its about... yeah well ill cya later on this subject....
other than the bullshit i love summer, and i cant wait for so many things, fourth of july, summer with the best, and gettign fubar forever.... peace out