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So I've been pretty stressed out about the thought of living alone. =/ I'm excited and yet nervous. One because ill barely be affording it. Plus there's gonna be some changes happening at work and I'm thinking 'what if I don't make the cut,' an lose my job or something. I'd have to work a lot more hours to make close to what I make at the flea market and my school schedule always ends up being a total clusterfuck with little time in between classes to do much of anything, let alone work. If nothing else I know my manager and his wife love me and would probably fight tooth and nail to keep me. Also I'm pretty sure about half of the people who actually DO still come into our store would probably quit if he fired me or something. A lot of them tell me I'm the only reason they still stop by. Ack. I don't know. My mom is pretty much just like 'you'll get a roommate and won't have to worry about it' and my dads view is 'everything will work out' but me? I'm trying to think about every single possibility , good and bad, so that I can be covered. I don't know... I'm just worried. =/ however, if I don't end up unemployed within a few weeks there's a good chance I may end up working more hours which is good. But the fact that it could go either way stresses me out. ~_~
And the second reason I'm stressed at the thought is that I haven't been in the best spirits lately. At all. Living alone could either be a really good thing or bad. @_@