How Do We Make it Stop?
Yesterday something sparked me to watch Old School Grey's. I popped in "1.05 Shake Your Grove Thing" while I ate my Chinese food. It's one of my favorite episodes, that one, I think because the sentiment it puts across of fighting against responsibility is one that I understand completely, especially right now.
Over the years, the characters on Grey's have left me behind in a way. I still love them, of course, but now that they are married and worried about PTSD and babies I understand them less. Meredith makes more sense to me when she is dancing outside with a bottle of tequila. I miss those days in my life, too. I miss dancing with my friends, calling them to go out and not having to worry. I don't know that I was emotionally or socially ready to leave, and now I'm clinging to the prospect of the summer where I'll have Marla again. Where we'll just be us, taking over Europe and dancing. Drinking wine, and coffee, and being ridiculous.
I had it for a short while the past six weeks, and know it will come again, but I was really down yesterday missing the camaraderie. Seeing Meredith, Alex, George, Izzie and Cristina back when it was the five of them against the world helped me recapture it for forty-two minutes. Let's hope I'm not relying on a TV show for that for the rest of my life. I like having people.
Over the years, the characters on Grey's have left me behind in a way. I still love them, of course, but now that they are married and worried about PTSD and babies I understand them less. Meredith makes more sense to me when she is dancing outside with a bottle of tequila. I miss those days in my life, too. I miss dancing with my friends, calling them to go out and not having to worry. I don't know that I was emotionally or socially ready to leave, and now I'm clinging to the prospect of the summer where I'll have Marla again. Where we'll just be us, taking over Europe and dancing. Drinking wine, and coffee, and being ridiculous.
I had it for a short while the past six weeks, and know it will come again, but I was really down yesterday missing the camaraderie. Seeing Meredith, Alex, George, Izzie and Cristina back when it was the five of them against the world helped me recapture it for forty-two minutes. Let's hope I'm not relying on a TV show for that for the rest of my life. I like having people.