waz up?
hey people...not a whole lot goin on here. Sarah and I are still together and doing good as far as I know. We don't get too much time to talk though. I'm always with my friends and hardly ever home. I need to spend time with my true friends though. So many thoughts keep running through my head about Tabbi and I can't get rid of them. To a point, I am in favor of myself and thinking she shouldn't have done that to me and she was never a true friend and on the other hand, I wish I coulda been a better friend to her and maybe things would be different. But everytime I'm with Paige, I just think "Wow, this girl was so worth it" and she was. With all my heart, I do believe she was worth losing some of the Lebanon bitches over. But to my other friends, Sarah, Brittany, Liz, Laura, Stephy, Katie, and even Kristy...I still love you guys and as long as you love me, I always will love you. Kristy actually spoke to me today, which just made me really happy. I probably wouldn't have cared if she decided to take Tabbi's side completely but she spoke to me and was so sweet and I'm glad I still get to talk to her. It just shows she isn't very loyal to Tabbi if she's still talking to the enemy. Due to the fact, she isn't being a total bitch, I'm going to the parking lot in the morning and I'm gonna talk to her. Actually, I need to see if Sarah read my papers too...so yeah. When I keep thinking about it, I wonder how life is so cruel. I went and took my 2nd year of manu. tech to be with Paige and hoping to get away from Tabbi and Kristy so I didn't have to pretend to be something I'm not and after doing so, I feel bad for leaving Sarah in english by herself, then I end up with no classes w/Sarah and having fucking english with Tabbi and Kristy. I get so pissed off thinking about it. I just wanna hit something really fucking hard!!!!!! Well I just keep thinking this year will be a repeat of the worst year of my life. My 9th grade year....when I was so weak, with few friends, and never without a razor in my hand.