....things really suck
well here I am, gettin ready to go help mom at school today. I know they probably need my help but I can't be doing this shit every Friday. I like to go to school on Fridays 'cause they are the easiest days. Things have been pretty bad here lately. Tabbi hates my guts now, but I'm trying to get over that. Maybe she wasn't my friend after I thought she was after like 12 years of knowing each other. It greatly depresses me though. I just try to look at the fact I still have Paige, Brittany, Sarah, Liz, Laura, Tabby J, Stephy, Tony, the other Liz (at vo-tech) and a few other friends. However, for all I know they could get mad and leave me too. It's just hard to get all this through my head. It doesn't feel real at all. I wish it would all be a dream but I know that's not gonna happen. I've brought this on myself and I need to try and deal with it somehow. All I can hope for is that, if I don't kill myself, something or someone else will.